Drown in the Riptide// Heyimgrape ff

Chapter 8

//I don't even have words for how ashamed I am right now, I'll be shocked if anyones still reading this//

"Oh my gosh guys you need to see this."

Teamspeak was horrid,

"Its so cute!"

Why did Straub have to be like this.

"Its a vine I found under my hashtag.

It was Wednesday night on teamspeak with the guys and today's topic was me and Sean. Ever since we had put that video up yesterday people were shipping us left and right, even Straub. As everyone went to the link Straub put in chat I causally poked Sean

this is so ridiculous, I bet it isnt even cute

Sounds of ooos and awws came from my head phones,

tru but the vine is cute ;)

Rolling my eyes I decided it might be worth my time to check it out. So while the others moved onto the topic of Bayani and Dul, I clicked on the link. Vine popped up on my browser and along with it a short video of me and Sean.

There were alot of clips from pax and his recent vlogs and a catchy song to go along with it,

damit the thing is cute

For the rest of the time I just sat and stared at the blank screen, listening to my friends talk and laugh, too many thoughts in my head to join them. The more and more I recorded the more I felt myself suffocating in sadness. Youtube didn't make me happy anymore, it just pervented me from going outside, seeing my family and friends, from living.

"You went silent on teamspeak..."

The echoo grew closer as Sean's face appeared by my door, a slight frown on his face. I just looked down with my eyes sagging, forgeting all about the editing I had been doing. When no response came to him Sean entered the room fully and pulled my chair up next to the bed. Once he had sat down on the bed he came in close with elbows on knees and whispered,

"Bee, what's wrong? Lately you've been so quiet and sad, before I came it seemed even worse."

Not knowing what to say or do I leanded my head onto Sean's shoulder and just cried, I moved nexted to him and just cried. I let it all out, the outside, the videos, the motivation..., the sadness. And through it all he held me, held me like a child in a mothers arms'.

He kissed me on the forehead and when I was done whipping the last tear from my eye, Sean layed me down in my bed, shut down the computer, and turned off the light.

// No promises on when the next chapter will be out but thx for over 100 veiws, luv u guys,
bia//