Sparks without a flame

Chapter 4

"Now tell me, why am I here?" Arlo looks at me and then smiles "look rose, you need to losen up a bit, I know zeke can be a bit annoying but-" I stop him "a bit?? You mean much" I say as I walk away, I wonder why Ezekiel hates me so much, you not what I don't care. Maybe a little but fuck it I'm going to have some drinks
"yooo girl, who are you and why haven't I seen you before?" A tall blonde stands in front of me "um what?" I say as I'm confused and a bit drunk he takes my hand "forget what I asked, why don't you go with me?" I try to take my hand to myself but I can't. As he drags me up the stairs I get flashbacks. From him. I feel tears rolling down my face, I moved here to start over not to relive it. I can't do this. I want to stop him, but I can't. I won't to yell but I can't get any words out of me. Dear god help me.
"Anyone in here?" I slightly here someone ask "yeah, pretty busy" the blonde guy says and then the other person disappears, it sounded like, like someone I knew but I couldn't get my mind on who it was. "Please stop." I say as tears roll down my face. He looks at me and says "it won't take long" as he undresses me. After 20 minutes he goes out as I sit on the bed traumatised. It happened again...
I hear someone coming, I rush to the bathroom as fast as I can and then I hear him "rose are you here??" I can't answer. I won't. He can't know. No one can know.

15 minutes has passed by and I walk down stairs, as I come down my eyes connect with Ezekiels, I goes towards him but he walks away "Ezekiel I need to talk to you!" I yell, but he keeps going "fine. Go but can you at least tell Arlo I wanna go home when you see him" i stops the second I said home. Why did he stop?? It takes him some seconds to turn around right in that second he grabs my arm and drag me outside "get in the car, I'll be there in 2" i don't say anything just follow his orders.

"Later Elliot" Ezekiel says, "I might hate you but I cant let you be here any second when you feel this uncomfortable" I've locked out of the window but as he says that I look right into his eyes, how does he know that?? "Don't ask, I just know" he can totally read minds. "Rose, I hate you. I won't do this again. Okay??" He says as I walk to my door "okay. Thank you." I unlock the door and run up to my apartment.

I have so many questions to myself, why did it happen to me, why always me. I know others might experience it too but not like this. I can't go to work tomorrow. But I need to. Fuck me.

would you mind asking Evan if I can come a bit later tomorrow?

of course rose, you good?
Rose: I'm perfect, and thank you

As I send the message to Sunday I put my phone away and begins to write in my journal. Yeah call me old school but it's my therapy. It's what I do, I write all my good days shitty days sad days down in this book. All things. It's how I don't end up with this overfilled bubble inside of me.

As I sit here on my bed I wonder, why me? I moved here to start over. To get another story started not only a chapter but a whole new story. I love Sunday Arlo and Elliot. But Ezekiel that b***t get in my nerves and I don't even know why. Cause in reality he's sweet. And so is his kid it's just something about him.
I've sat here for hours writing in my journal maybe I should get some sleep in before tomorrow, I do have a shift from 10am-12am.

10 am
Sunday texted me and said Evan said I could come at 12 pm instead, so either I can sleep 2 more hours or go do something, I decided to lay in bed for another nice hour and then I got up to get ready and walk to work. "Hi Evan, thanks for letting me come a bit later" I say as I get my apron on "of course, are you sure you're okay kiddo?" He asks as he looks down at me, I give him a little smile and says "yeah, I was just very tired.

"Darling, why did you come so late?" Arlo asks "and why didn't you say goodbye before leaving" he continues "I was tired so I left early and couldn't find you so Ezekiel drove me home" I say as Arlo looks at me "YOU LEFT WITH ZEKE?!" Sunday screams "you know he never drives a girl home right? Not after-" Arlo looks at her with a strict look "never mind, but he never drives a girl home, not even me Rosie. He he says he hates you" sunday says a bit quieter. So maybe he doesn't hate me that much? I don't care I hate him. "Okay? So?" Arlo and Sunday rolls their eyes at my comment.

Ezekiel

I lay in bed as I hear my phone ring "zeke is it true?! You drove rose home?" God damit Evie why tell them "I guess" he says "daddy!! I wanna see rose again" koko says "HE WAS WITH TOO!?" Arlo and Elliot asks at the same time "mhm" "bro you better tell us what happened" they say in the phone. Why do they always think that there's something going to happened, I have koko so I'm not bringing girls over anymore, I used to yeah, but he was only one that time, now he's 3 and I've learned. "Mhm, bye boys" I say as I hang up
"Koko come here" I slightly clap in my lap as a sign for him to sit "why do you wanna see rose again you say?" He looks me deep in the eyes "she's so pretty daddy, and she gives the best hugs" I laugh over his common but I guess it's not the worst nightmare for him to see her again, I just don't want him getting to attached "okay kiddo" "YAYYY THANKS DADDY!!" He's so happy and I love it.