Sparks without a flame

Chapter 8

Its been 2 hours she was supposed to be here by an hour ago. "Daddy where is she?" I don't know. "I'm not sure, I will call aunt Sunday to babysit you for the night okay koko?" He begins to cry "I want Rosie daddy" "I know koko, but she's not here right now and I need to go" he runs to his room. It's hard to be a dad. "Sunday, could you please babysit koko, I haven't heard from Rose in two hours she was supposed to-" Sunday stops me "ofc i will i will be there in 5 bringing the boys to"

"I can't find her. I don't know where she went. Why couldn't I just stayed shut. God I hate myself right now" fuck me seriously fuck me.
Me arlo and Elliot drives off.
first we check her place there she isn't we check the restaurant, she isn't there either. But I remember she put in her location once, maybe it's still "YES!" God yes "I know where she is."

As Arlo drives the car into a driveway i see her on the concrete with blood all over her bruises on her face and her arms too and a big one on her neck. "Who did this rose." She lays there almost unable to talk "it doesn't matter, it's okay I've deserved it." I sit down with her "rose tell me who did this to you. I am the only person who gets to hurt you. WHO FUCKTING HURT YOU LIKE THIS?!?" I yell, she begins to cry "rose look at me, please tell us who did it." Elliot says calm to her "my ex. My rapist. He did it again. It was much worse this time. I don't know how he found me. Why can't he leave me alone I can't do this." She begins to break down. "WHERE TF IS THIS DUDE" she tries to stand but fails "I want to go home. Please." She looks at me "we will take you. I promise"

As we arrive I carry her inside "you guys can go home, thank you." I take her to her bathroom and slowly begins to wipe all the blood off her. "I'm sorry for all of this. It's my fault." She puts her cold little hands over my mouth "it's okay for now. I'm tried and It hurts everywhere." I carry her, to her bed tuck her in and kisses her forehead "bye rose." As I'm about to stand up she grabs my wrist "please stay." "I can't rose. You will be mad at me tomorrow" "but. No I won't I promise. I'm afraid. What if... if he comes here again. I- I'm. What if. Ezekiel what if he-" she begins to shake, her breaths start getting faster i take her hands "hey. I'm right here. Deep breaths in... and out...." I give her hands a little squeeze so she knows im still here "tell me 5 things you can see." "I can't I- I can't breath" I take her closer to me "take it slow, tell me 5 things you see" she looks in the room "a bed... a table... a mirror, pillows... and you" "good now 4 things you can touch" she stops her breathing "rose calm down. Listen to my voice" I say calm "4 things you can touch" she closes her eyes "my bed. My hair. My books and you" her breathing is starting to become normal "tell me 3 things you can hear" "myself, my fan and yo.. you" she sobs "good job, 2 things you can smell" she takes a big breath though her nose "nature, your perfume" I laugh a bit. "Now one thing you can feel in this moment." She stops for a second "your hands. Your safe warm hands" she ends it. She opens her eyes her breathing is normal again. "How did you know what to do?" Um. Yeah good question "someone I knew had panic attacks very often" she hugs me very tight. "i'm sorry ezekiel i'm so sorry. i should've called you. but i was so mad" i take her heard out of my chest and lift her chin up "it's not your fault okay? it was mine, i made you go off. you should never experience things like this evie never." she looks down and then up at me again "don't call me that." i giggle "what? evie? well to bad" she smiles "see i got a smile on you" "wait" she sits up "makoa? i'm so sorry i-" "it's fine sunday-" she's about to say something but doesn't "i think you should get some sleep" she lays down and i tuck her in again "night." "but where will you sleep?" she looks around "the floor" she furrow her eye brown "yeah, no not gonna happen i might be mad at you but letting you sleep on the floor after what you did. no way. come here" she says as she claps the side beside her.

i lay facing her, looking right into her stunning eyes. taking a lock from her hair and playing with it. she smiles as her eyes close.
i lay closer to her and she takes my arm around her. i feel safe like this.

Evrose

Something wakes me up. Someone besides me whos yelling, shaking and sweating a lot "STOP, LET HER BE ALON. PLEASE YOUR HURTING HER! PLEASE STOP." He repeats himself "Ezekiel wake up!" I yell he's not waking up "STOP. LET HER. SHE HAS A BABY. DONT DO IT TO HER." I take his head in my lap as I trace my hand up and down on his cheek "I'm right here Ezekiel. Right here" "NO. NO NO NO GIA. NO IM SORRY IM SO SORRY!" Gia? "Ezy wake up." I begin to tear up, it's hard to see him like this. After some more yelling his eyes widen "Evie they killed her. I- I could've stopped them I- why. I'm." I take his hands "tell me 3 things you feel" he's trying to get his breath under control "No evie. No i can't. I can't I need to get back at them" I look in into his eyes "Ezekiel you need to breath okay? Please tell me 3 things you feel" "my pain" "My tears" "and....Your cold hands" I squeeze his hands to make sure he knows this is reality and not that. "But I could've saved her Evie. But I didn't. I let them kill her. Just like that." I wonder who he's talking about. But I know if I ask him know he will tell me, but I also know if he really wants to tell me he will do it without me asking. So i will not ask. "You have these often?" I ask he nods "way to often." He lays down again and I do the same.