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one month later

Sirus pov

It's been over a month since me and remus were attacked on our anniversary. It's been hard not having him here even though I'm trying my hardest to be strong for him. The first week was the worst as I didn't want to leave the dorm rooms after being released, I started having panic attacks when I tried to visit him but that's when I made the decision to stop going.

7am.

It was a Saturday so I was happy I could go hogsmade, it took me a while to go out and go places again. James and the others understand why I stopped going to the hospital after that day, they were worried about me since my panic attack. I've told myself everyday I could do it but it would start back up again, it was the worst feeling I ever had in my entire life and remus isn't here for me when I need him. I see James and lily in the common room waiting for someone to come, you guys ok has something happened I asked.

Nothing bad we wanted to see if you were ok before we left james said, yeah I'll be okay is there any updates on him I asked. He's doing okay he still sleeping so we are about to go we are just waiting for peter lily said, yeah that's good to hear I'm off anyway I'm going to hogsmade to clear my mind I said. I head to the great hall to get some breakfast as I was hungry, I really do hope he wakes up soon because I need him really badly. I don't know how long I can pretend that I'm ok when I'm not, I think I lost a bit of myself that day when he went into that coma.

How does anyone recover from being attacked with your own boyfriend. My family have been my rock during that awful month, they know I'm not in the best place with my emotions, but today our parents called them over for something that I didn't want to know or care about. Last week was the best I got to see my uncle alphrad after so many years, he was the one who always had my back no matter what my parents had to say or do. I'm happy my grandparents let him know about what happened to me and maybe let him visit or see him.

10am.

I was in hogsmade getting some food and snacks when I came across a sketch book. When I was young I used to love drawing as it was a nice hobby, but things happened with my parents so I lost the love for drawing. I don't care now I'm getting back to doing things I like so I grabbed everything to do some drawing, I needed something to distract me from that day and what Tom did to us. Since that day I questioned how he got out and how he knew me and remus were by the lake, like I haven't been told as they want to wait until remus was awake.

I just feel like we may never know what really happened to us, when I woke up in hospital it was weird not seeing remus there. I knew something was wrong when we outside and it was way to quiet, but I thought maybe I was going crazy because all I needed was remus at the time. I heard someone call my name and saw it was my childhood friend Angelica after so many years. Angelica oh my god its been so many years how are you I asked, I'm good and how are you Angelica said. Its been a rough time but I'm getting there I'm surprised to see you here I said.

Well my mom owns the cafe here and says she see you come here alot Angelica said. Yeah I thought it was your mom when I first went there so should we go and sit down to catch up I said, we headed inside the cafe and just started talking. It was nice to catch up with her as we haven't seen eachother in a long time, she has a girlfriend and soon she is graduating school and plans to work in the ministry of magic after. I was happy for her as she deserved it for all the hard work she put in, growing up she always wanted to follow in her fathers footsteps.

Then she asked me how my life was and how I was doing, she was surprised to hear I had a boyfriend. She was sad to know I was attacked on our anniversary as that's supposed to be a special day togethe, she was right that things like that are crazy to happen and someone knew what we were doing that day. I was grateful someone knew I was right about my feelings, but today is a new day and we be strong for the ones who can't be here for us that was something I needed to hear in the past month.