Under the Surface

Chapter 6 | His House

There I was, at the corner before his house dealing with the unspoken emotions that I called my own. I felt the pit of anxiety my heart had following towards it; it turned my stomach into a trillion knots as if I had never rid of those emotions at all. As if I were them and they were me. 

I finally reached the end of the block and there was his house, I was terrified. I began to overthink about how we last left off things when he left the hospital.. It's been a week since we last spoke and I didn't know what to do or how I should feel; but I definitely felt that was for sure.

She knocked and he checked who it was inside the peep hole of the door. He then opened the door, hiding his own excitement but it was surely there.

Oh hey Guen, what's up? 

Hey! You left your hat at the hospital I think it dropped on the ground; might want to wash it.

Oh yeah, defiently needs a wash. Thanks for returning my hat; I've been looking for that dirty thing. 

She laughed and he gave a little chuckle. It was nice considering they haven't spoke in a week and regardless of what happened between them; they always had chemistry which they both denied. 

I'm sorry for not only telling you to go but obviously mostly for your hat. But again, it was wrong of me to make you leave you were trying to comfort me and I kind of just freaked out. My episodes sometimes haunt me as if I were never in control at all and for that I am sorry.

Please don't tell me you're sorry; I understand as for my hat, I can't forgive you. He gave a warm smile.

 Definitely not; I wouldn't forgive me either. What a dusty hat.

Her mind: This is why I like him and no matter what girl comes his way I want to make sure he is always happy before my own happiness; but truly I wish we had kissed that day.

His mind: I wish I could kiss her and forget everything happened, she's perfect. And although God is always first; I want to help her get back into her faith because I have faith in her.

It felt normal to them and just like they'd always joke around; they did. But here came a serious question; which Genevieve was unready to respond to, she feared it'd come.

Him: So why did you want me to leave and how are you feeling?

She paused.

For starters, I'm doing much better than I was. I don't remember much from that day; all I know is I almost died and I was ready to go away forever. It's like when you know you're on your death bed hearing everyone around you all the conversation but it's as if you can't open your eyes. Alex, I was ready to die and I was prepared to never see you or my Dad again. I was ready to die.

Please don't ever say you're ready to die; I can't lose you Guen. 

I know; but it's the truth I was on my death bed and I even said in my head; Bye Dad I'm going to be with Mom now. I'm sorry if that scares you but I wanted to be as honest as possible and that was the truth. Again, I'm really sorry and I'll keep fighting for my life until the end.

In that moment he realized he almost lost the love of his life.

I don't know what to say..I need you in my life Genevieve without you there is no kindness; hope; or even compassion. You make me so happy and you're the best friend I could ever have.

Again; friend, she thought.. She was ready to shut the door on him except this time she was on the outside; she had commitment issues ever since 

Her chest and neck suddenly began to become choked up; she felt anxious.

Guen??

How's your girlfriend? 

Speaking of girlfriends; me and Kelly broke up last week.

Why didn't you tell me? 

Because you casted me away.

A/N: Thank you for reading this chapter if you did; more will be out shortly.