Under the Surface

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Genevieve

Being in the hospital that day wasn't that bad. It wasn't something that happened frequently, but I guess I didn't mind it. The doctor wanted me to take it easy for a while, but I think I'll be okay. After all, these flashbacks I get are pretty frequent anyways.. 

There's a lot about my life that I like to keep secret. Especially things that have happened to me or things I've done. Sometimes I even wonder if God would forgive me; even though I lost faith for a while I want to find my way back to him.

Since you don't know much about me, my name is Genevieve Elizabeth Montgomery and I am 19 years old. 

I'm currently enrolled in a university to become a therapist and I've always enjoyed helping people and it's something that I'd like to consider a passion of mine. 

Ever since my mother passed away, I became more dependent on helping others than myself because I saw it as an escape from the eternity that seemed like misery before me

. An escape to admitting to how I really feel and an escape from letting people inside of my life. I don't really like focusing on myself because I often see it as being selfish. So many people have it worse than me and I can't possibly dwell on how shitty my life can be, right?

Oh, I almost forgot. As for Alex, he's my best friend and I've had a crush on him ever since we were little. I never really thought about telling him because well, I know he doesn't like me like that and it's never going to work out.

 If we even did date it would ruin our entire friendship, which wouldn't happen anyways. I guess it's just sad to see someone you love go from girlfriend to girlfriend when you've never been able to show them what you have to offer. At this point in my life I've just learned to be happy for him, if he's happy I'm happy. 

Also, he's a Christian and it warms my heart that he has values just like I'd like to again one day. I've always dreamed of having a perfect family along with children of my own. Ever since my mom passed; I've always wanted to be perfect for everyone else around me and most of the time I fall short of the Glory of God. I started going back to church and it's an overwhelming feeling of not only excitement but I feel the Holy Spirit within me. God is great and he is true, the Devil comes to Steal, Kill and Destroy and he won't kill me I won't let him.

I have to do this not only for me; but my Mom she would be proud of me.

A/N: I'm sorry this is a super short chapter, but I just wanted to get something up since I haven't posted in a while.