Dear God,
I messed up again today. I know you already know but I know I need to tell you. I'm sorry. I honestly don't understand why I keep doing this. I was doing really good. I experienced you in a way I never have before. You'd think that'd cure me. You'd think after an experience like that I'd be able to trust you enough to run to you in times of temptation. I don't want to make excuses I know I messed up. I know I failed. Please, I beg of you, forgive me. I'm at a point where I don't know if I'm real anymore. I don't know if I'll be good enough to dwell in your presence forever. I know I'm not worthy. I don't want to take advantage of your grace. I just want to walk with you. I want to trust you. I want to believe in you, because honestly sometimes it's hard to do that. I don't want to be afraid.
