Rottmnt Donnie angst :D

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Raph leaned back on his chair slightly, doing his best to think. It didn't make sense that his genius brother wasn't aware of the effects of sleep deprivation. Even if he was aware how could he go for so long without sleep? Mikey had mentioned that he hadn't slept in around 5 days. 

Leo: "So what do we do?"

 Raph wasn't sure. Dad only started to care at around 7 days and if they told him he would just tell them to leave Donnie alone.

Mikey: "Wait, isn't April's mom a doctor, she  could get some sleeping pills or something for Donne?" That was genius! How did they never think of that! But how would they get Donnie to take it?

Leo: "That's a good idea Mikey but how do we get Dee to take it? He'd probably avoid taking it at any cost." Read his mind.

 Mikey: "Well we could put it in his food or mix it into a drink?" 

Raph: "Okay,well should I call April then and ask for some medication then?"

 Mikey: "Yes. Me and Leo will scheme ways to put this in Donnie's food.

Donnie stormed into his lab, how could his own brother's not want him to pursue his own interests?! "Dum Dum dum" he muttered softly to himself as he worked. Busying himself with work was the only way to not feel anything. Anything from a month ago when they-

He picked up a cup of coffee and drank from it, forgetting his previous thoughts and focusing on the battleshell. He has mostly completed the repairs on the robot arms, there was just the padding in the inside. It seemed to scratch against his soft shell which added to his wound from a month ago. Did he even patch it up? No he didn't. Did he even care? Yes, he did. It still hurt like hell but after a couple of weeks he got used to the occasional stabbing pain in his back.

 Running his eyes and yawning became something that he did almost every minute now, his body craved the sweet relief of rest. Comfort. Dreams. But he didn't get these so called 'dreams' these 'escapes from reality '. NO. He got flashbacks of krang and what could've happened. Stupid brain won't even let him think how he wanted to. 

Raph: "Mikey I have the medication." Raph ran inside carrying a small box of the pills. Mikey had decided to just make a yogurt and crush the pills into it. He read online that it works to disguise medication for stubborn older brothers who refuse to sleep. 

Mikey: "Thank you Raph!" He said with a smile. Opening the box, there was a small slip of paper inside from April, it read: ' Hey guys, I was told Donnie has to take this before he usually goes to sleep so maybe put it in his dinner tonight for an early night!' Thanks April. He crushed the pills and mixed them into the yogurt.

 Mikey:  "DONNIE I MADE YOU FOOD COME HERE!!" That was loud enough for him to hear.

Donnie turned, did Mikey just call him? Sigh. He walked out of his room and into the kitchen. There stood Mikey with yogurt. 

Mikey: "here is some food, eat it brother."

 Donnie: "Uhhhh, what is going on?"

 Mikey shoved the bowl in his face and a creepy smile crept into his face. 

 Mikey: "eaatttt itttttt..." Donnie shuddered, his brother could be weird sometimes. Nevertheless, he accepted the bowl reluctantly and ate. 

He began to feel drowsy after that. Like he had stood up too fast and not sat back down. Did they drug him? DID THEY DRUG HIM?! 

Donnie: "Did you put something in my yogurt cause I feel tired." 

 Mikey: "Nooooo, I would never, let's just get you to bed." 

 Bed? Sleep? No no no, he couldn't not sleep. NO NO. He snapped awake immediately

Donnie: "NO NO YOU CAN'T I CAN'T!" Screaming and shouting. His head throbbed horribly. Mikey shouted for Raph who came running to the scene of Mikey attempting to drag Donnie to his room and Donnie screaming at him. Tears rolled down his eyes, he let to of Mikey and curled up into a ball on the floor. 

Donnie: "I can't, I can't. I can't go back. I CAN'T!" He rocked back and forth with his head between his legs.

 Raph: "Go back to where Donnie?" Concern lacing his voice.

 Donnie: "Back... Back to- I can't..." Word didn't work how they previously did. He hiccuped between words and panic consumed his mind. 

 Raph: "Dee, where can't you go back to? It's okay, you can tell me." He patted his shoulder gently.

 Donnie : "That *hic* that day. Th- the day when.-" His eyes filled with tears as the scene of that day played out. When Leo decided to be a self sacrificing idiot and almost die. 

Raph fell back. The invasion? That's right, Donnie never got help from anyone, he downright refused to talk about his feelings and his injuries. Wait, he never saw anyone for them. Why didn't he?..

Leo had walked in on the scene and immediately ran to Donnie. Donnie who was shaking profusely and rocking himself in a ball. 

Leo: "Donnie what happened?" His voice was so fast and panicky Donnie could barely pick out what was said.

Donnie: "Sleep, can't. No-" he bit his finger. Sleep was finally getting too him. 

Leo: "shh, shh, it's okay. I'm here now." 

 "I'm here."