The farmers Daughter[Daryl Dixon]

Chapter eighteen-"Scars"

  The suicide warning counties on this chapter as well.

"Mom would be ashamed"Maggie said as I walked into the room she was sitting on the bed by Beth While Beth was sitting up looking at her"To learn she raised such a cowerd"I knew Maggie was trying to help so I didn't say anything as I sat next to Maggie

   "What about dad Beth?"She questions Beth looked back up"Hes clueless he had us waiting for a cure even Thena know he was wrong"I bit my lip and looked down as both girls looked at me"He knows he was wrong"Maggie said looking at Beth"When has dad ever admitted he was wrong"
 
  He hasn't but you can see it in his eyss I saw it when Shane shot those walkers"Hes telling Ricks group what they want to hear"I shook my head I'm not gonna lie she was mommas favorite she spent more time with mom then any of us

  "And Jimmy?"Maggie asked"We went out for three months now I'm married to him"I started tearing up once again"And me and thena your gonna do that to us"Maggie cryed  I put my hand on her shoulder"I can't take another funneral"I nodded"We can't take your funeral"I added making Beth sais shaking her head

  "You can't avoid it"How can she even say that"What are we waiting for"We...what are we waiting for we need to live we need to fight"We should do it together"Iblooked up at her her wanting to do this was bad enough but trying to get us to do it"What"Both me and Maggie sais at the same time"At the same time help eachother me you and Thena"

  I whimpered slightly shaking my head I wanted my happy Beth the one that would try to keep me from slipping"No"Maggie said but Beth just keep on trying"Its hard to do it no one want to but Maggie grabed Beth's hands

  "No please dont.."Maggie cryed I looked at Beth shaking my head"Please Bethy dont...don't say this stuff"I cryed out leaning my head on maggie"we can do it so its peaceful easy"I couldn't hear this not from her not from my family not after I have tryed to do this two....not after I sent Alexxa away and spent the night holding my sword to my neck

   "Stop talking like that"Maggie cryed Maggie was the one that stopped me from doing it she was man then Two"Our choice and then it would be over You don't think I heard you yelling at Thena when she wanted to do it"I gasped and looked at her with shock

  She heard it she heard Maggie telling me not to do it"Or well be forced to do it when the farm is and this house is overrun"no no well keep this house safe"no one can protect us"I shook my head I knew for a fact This group will"Thats not true"Me and Maggie sais at the same time

  "Who Glenn or or Daryl I heard what happened Rick wil save his family"I looked down not wanting to hear anymore butbi knew I had to stay"The others two Daryl will leave you again and we'll be alone"I shook my head just like Maggie was doing "You Thena me Patricia"My lip was quivering as I cryed

  How can she do this think this"With only dad and Jimmy against a whole world of those things"was I selfish because I keep thinking about what she said about Daryl would he leave again...would he leave me...God she's in my head if he leaves I don't know what to do maybe I should leave first distance myself

  "Bethy please stop doing this"I say sobbing witch had Maggie put her arm around me"I don't wanna be gutted.."I looked dow and picture that thing in the pharmacy that attacked Me the fear I had....I shook my head from those thoughts"I wanna go"I looked back up at Beth

  "In this bed Tonight....with you"She said looking at Maggie then me"and Thena beside me"At this point Maggie has tryed her tears she just keep staring at Beth in shock"Please...."she begged I shook my head"No No no"I said over and over again"Ive lots Otis we all have we lost are step mom are reall mom are step brother"

  Maggie looked up at me"WERE NOT LOSING YOU TO"I say Maggie now was sitting on the edge of the bed legs hanging off the room was silent"I have to go"I say walking out of the door and down the stairs out of the house I sat on the porch starting to cry"Hey"I looked up and smiled softly at Glenn"H-hey"I stuttered out

   Glen sat down next to me on the stairs"Im sorry for your sister"I nodded and started whimpering"Oh Glenn I can't lose her"I cryed throwing my head back"Come here"Glenn said bringing me into a hug when Maggie came put and sat down I smiled at her"Wait who's watching Beth"I asked looking at her

"Andrea"My eyes go wide and I stood uo"NO NO NO"I sais running back into the house"What"Maggie asked as we ran back up the stairs"Andrea told me it was wrong to take the knife away"I said fear in my face"She said it was okay for Beth to kill herself"Maggies eyes go wide ans she pushed past me swinging open the door

  When we didn't see Beth on the bed we looked in the corner intell we heard crying in the bathroom we ran up to the door"Beth"Maggie asked as we heard glass brake"BETH"Maggie yelled banging on the door and trying to open it"BETHY DONT PLEASE"I cryed screaming at this point"Maggie"Lori asked walking in

  "SHES IN THERE"Maggie cryed
"WE HEARD GLASS BRAKE"I cryed my body shaking my sister is gonna take her life I can't go through that"Beth you alright"Lori asked walking next to me as me and Maggie try to get in the door

  "Don't do this"Maggie begged"Beth don't do this"Cryed next to her banging on the door"Open up please"Maggie said I shook my head fear in my body I feel like I was gonna pass pass out and I needed my inhaler"God I left her with Andrea"Im gonna kill her im going to

  "Wares the key"Lori asked as Maggie looked on the desk"I don't know"Maggie said oping the drawer I keep trying to open it now grabing the nob"Beth Honey please open the door"I cryed shaking my head Maggie came up next to me"I didn't find it"No no...I sobbed harder and harder"Were not mad were not mad Beth"I cryed trying to get the foor to budge

  "Maggie Athena"Lori said walking over to us she was holding a crow bar witch had us move away from the door it didn't take me and Maggie long to hang onto eachother are bodies shaking"Hang on"lori said with fear she put the crow bar in the crack when Lori got it open I gasped seeing Beth looking at herself

  She turned around slowly"Im sorry"she cryed she had blood running down from her ristsme and Maggie walked into the room I held her shoulder as Maggie hugged her"Okay it's okay"Maggie sobbed out we made are way out of the bathroom as Maggie held Beth's wound

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I walked out of the room with Lori as we walked out of the house Andrea was running up us"You son of a Bitch"I said my hands shaking"I heard is she alright?"I shook my head as Maggie stood next to me

  "She would be if you had stayed with her where were you"Maggie asked just as angry as me"How bad is she"I rolled my eyes"Its wasn't deep"lori said as Andrea sighed with a smile"what the he'll you got to smile about you slmodt killed my sister"I sais angerly"She wants to live she made her decision"

That's not the fucking point"SHE TRIED TO KILL HERSELF"Yelled Maggi"no she didn't"I glared at her"OUR FSTHER IS STICHING HER WRIST RIGHT NOW"I held so tightly onto my other hand trying not to kill this bitch"Shell live"Andrea said trying to walk past Maggie but Maggie stoped her

  "Stay away from her"Maggie warned"From all of us"Maggie added looking at Me"Dont you dare step foot inside this house again"I smirked slightly Maggie was a badass Andrea nodded and started walking away but I followed tell we were out of sight

  "Hey bitch"I said running up to her she turns around just as I smacked her in the nose making her fall to the floor"YOU LIKE THAT HUH BITCH WHAT IF THAT WAS YORU SISTER IN THAIR HUH"I yelled getting on top of her"SHE WANTED TO LIVE MY SISTER DIDN'T HAVE A CHOICE"I shruged slightly

  "AT LEAST YOUR SISTER GOT AWAY FROM YOU"I punched again and again and again"I got up and looked down at her"You do one more wrong thing on this farm and I'll kill you"I said walking away with a smirk NY hands hurt but the pain just made me feel like a badass she deserve more then just a couple punches to her face