Messenger
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Kuya Dwight
11:52 PM
Pauwi na kami
Hindi ka na talaga dumalo?
Her parents were finding you
i can't kuya, you know that
sisirain ko lang araw niya
today's supposed to be special
did she enjoy?
She looked happy
Nakangiti siya buong gabi
so I guess she enjoyed
okay, that's good to hear
It should've been you
One of her 18 roses
Medyo awkward tuloy nung ako pumalit sayo
how i wish i could be kuya
pero what's done is done
the gift pala? did you give her the gift?
Oo
Just like you told me to
Sabihin na galing sakin pero
galing naman sayo
Don't you think she'll know it's you
based on your gift?
i hope not
ibibigay ko dapat sa kanya yun noon
pagdating ng birthday niya pero
things happened
and i hope she likes it
kahit yun lang
okay na sakin
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📕 Personal • July 26, 2020
Letters to L
Day 43
Ang dami kong regrets, tam. I want to take all of it back, but I'm too late aren't I?
My mind is blank as I write this. Just like how life has been ever since that night. I miss you, completely. Gusto ko na lang ibalik yung oras na okay pa ang lahat. Yung oras na okay pa tayo.
Pero hindi na pwede.
Hindi na tayo pwede.
Wala na rin akong karapatan. Matapos akong umalis sa buhay mo, I can't just barged into your life like that. Kasi kahit anong gawin ko, natatakot ako. Natatakot parin akong ipaliwanag sayo lahat ng nangyari kahit kailangan mong malaman kung bakit kita biglang iniwan. You deserve at least an explanation. Pero tam, pinangako ko na sa sarili ko na hindi ko na yun babalikan. Ayaw ko ng balikan, tam. Masyadong masakit, kahit isipin ko palang. The guilt's still eating me up and it's already been a month.
Ayaw ko ng masaktan uli.
I'm sorry.
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📕 Personal • July 27, 2020
Letters to L
Day 44
It's 12 am as I write this. Memories are flashing back in mind. Nung panahong hinihintay ko pang mag 12 am para magmessage sayo because I want to start and end the day with you. And I still do. Lagi ko paring hinihintay ang alas-dose. Kung saan lahat nagsimula. At kung saan lahat din nagtapos.
I think I'll forever be hung up on the past. Hung up on you. Hung up on what we could've been. Hung up with regrets and guilt of leaving you. Mapapatawad mo pa kaya ako? Kung magkita man tayo, ano magiging reaksyon mo? Ano magiging reaksyon ko? I feel like it would be a battle, Tam. Kung makita man kita uli, my mind and heart would be in a constant battle of temptation and resistance. I know my heart would tell me to hold you tight and beg you to take me back but my mind would tell me otherwise.
Ang hirap pala ng hindi ka nakikita, Tam.
I hope I can see you soon. Even from afar. Even if you won't see me at all.
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