Love Beneath Lies (Part 2) ✓

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3:05 PM

Lexi
okay fine

i'll be honest

you've seen my tweets sa priv ko right?

si niko tinutukoy ko doon

we almost fucked

Adi
nasan yung hi? yung hello?

Liv
OMG?!?!?

Lexi
and it's my fault

ako unang humalik

Adi
HA

TEH?

hindi sana ako magugulat kung si niko ung unang humalik PERO IKAW?

Lexi
I KNOW

i self reflected after what happened

sabi ko sa sarili ko hindi na mangyayari ulit yun

Stacy
Did you kiss again today?

Lexi
no

but

i was imagining it

I HATE HOW I WAS IMAGINING IT

lalo na nung nagtouch fingers namin

nung nasa elevator kami tapos puno and he was faced towards me

HIS FACE WAS SO CLOSE I COULD FEEL HIM BREATHE

Adi
omyghad

OMYGHAD

Liv
IT'S REALLY OMYGHAD

what happened to i hate him?

Lexi
oh i still do

i hate him for making me feel like this

i hate him for invading my mind 24/7 ever since sumilpot na naman siya sa buhay ko

payapa na buhay ko nung wala siya eh

ngayon, ginugulo na naman niya

you know, i've kissed people besides him pero bakit ganito epekto nung kanya sakin pota

Stacy
Because it's Niko.

Lexi
and that's what i hate!!

i hate how the reason is "because it's niko" WHY IS HE SO SPECIAL

Adi
si niko lang naman minahal mo teh

wala ngang sumunod sa kanya

sure, you had flings pero hanggang usap landi lang

well except dun sa isa na nakaphysical mo

Lexi
yeah we don't talk about josiah here

i don't know what to do

ang dali lang naman ng dapat kong gawin eh

iwasan siya unless about sa wedding prep namin

pero bakit ngayon, siya lang laman ng isip ko

bakit ngayon, gusto kong maulit yung nangyari samin

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE THIS

Adi
are you really fixed on avoiding him, lex?

Lexi
oo

Adi
then tatagan mo loob mo

don't let him sweep you off your feet ng wala pa siya masyadong ginagawa

hindi pa nga siya naka 100 diba?

tsaka yang desires mo

sexually frustrated ka lang

Lexi
ADI!!

Adi
WHAT HAHAHAH TOTOO NAMAN

alam mo

narealize ko lang

his reason why he ghosted you weighs a lot on whether you'll forgive him or not

kaya ka siguro nahihirapan na makasama siya kasi hinahanap mo parin yung rason

Stacy
Or maybe, the feelings you repressed and masked with hate are now surfacing, Lex.

Kasi you felt that familiar proximity between you two.

Maybe you actually longed for his explanation. Or him in general. Hence, your desire.

Lexi
hindi ako aware na nasa consultation ako

Adi
AHHAAHAHA

we're just saying

you don't have to hear the whole story

kahit paunti unti

baby steps lex

Lexi
but the problem is

i still get hurt just thinking about it

just thinking how he left me after I just confessed I loved him

what more kung sasabihin niya yung rason

dati, iniisip ko na kahit anong paliwanag niya wala akong pake dahil mangingibabaw galit ko sa kanya

pero ngayon, everything's different

kasi alam kong once sasabihin niya yung rason, maiintindihan ko

tapos babalik na naman feelings ko kung sakaling ipursue na naman niya ako

and that scares me

i don't want to be hurt

especially by him

kaya nags-settle ako sa ganto

na hindi ko alam yung rason

na ayaw ko sa kanya

back then i thought it was easier to hate him than love him

and i still think the same

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