Until We Collide Again

UWCA 03| Drunk & Wasted

CLEO

Sex and alcohol. Smokes and Music. Every night this place had become my home. Tonight has no difference. I was only extra drunk and wasted because something came up. I couldn't handle it that's why I'm seeking help from alcohol again. 

"Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Seven days a week." I raised my hand as I began to grind my body in the air vibing with the song.

"Every hour every minute every second. You know night after night. I'll be fuckin' you right. Seven days a week!" I continued to sing. 

Muntik na ako matumba kung hindi ko nabalanse ang katawan ko kaya naman natawa ako. I've been drinking since seven and what time is it? I tried to look at my wristwatch but my eyes are just a bit blurry. 

I was trying to find my way back to the barstool when some random hoes bumped into me. Muntik na ako mag swimming sa sahig kung walang humawak sa braso ko. Sa pagtunghay ko nakita ko si Ijin kaya mabilis na kumunot ang noo ko. 

Siya na naman? 

"You're pretty drunk tonight, aren't you?" I rolled my eyes and let him guide me back to the barstool. 

"Manhattan, please." Nakita ko ang panlalaki ng mata ni niya. "Whoa! Look at you, you can barely walk and you're still drinking?" Sinubukan niyang agawin ang basong inabot sa akin ng bartender pero sinamaan ko lang siya ng tingin. 

What does he want from me? Why is he acting as if he cares? 

"Remember, you said yes for a therapy sesh last night." A therapy sesh? Wala nga akong maalalang may sinabi siya. 

Napairap na lang ako sa isip ko. Fine, I'll figure out what he wants in my own way. 

Dinukot ko ang susi ng sasakyan ko at pinaglaruan ito sa pagitan ng daliri ko. Umayos na rin ako ng upo at tumingin sa malayo habang umiinom ng alak. The moment I look away as I slowly drank the liquor in my hand, I felt his eyes landed on my lips. 

Sinadya kong ihulog ang susing pinaglalaruan ko dahilan upang ipatong ko ang basong hawak ko. Malapit sa gawi ni Ijin ang susi kaya naman yumuko ako't humawak sa kaliwang hita niya bilang suporta. I slowly lift my head up and I saw how he gulped as he stared straight into my doe eyes. 

Got you.

"You-" I innocently took my hand away from his thigh and continued to drink. Medyo nahihilo na ako, pero I can still squeeze information from him. 

"You know why I'm drinking, Ijin?" I made sure to maintain my doe eyes to keep him captivated. 

The reason why I think doe eyes would seduce him was because his aura radiates dominance. Using this method would want him to protect me because he thinks I look weak and dependable. 

Nahuli ko ang pagkurap ng mga mata niya na tila ba hindi alam kung ano ang gagawin niya dahil sa paraan ng pagtitig ko sa kanya. 

"I hate men, they disgust me." He tilt his head urging me to continue. There seems to be a lot of questions in his head. 

"I got all my traumas from men, especially from my father." This time he was more interested. He leaned closer as he carefully listened to me. 

"I didn't want him to choose over me and my step mom, so I left the house." Huminga ako nang malalim bago muling iiwas ang tingin ko. I acted as if I was about to cry and I don't want him to see it.

"I. . . I wandered alone in the middle of the night trying to find where to stay. Nabasa pa ako ng ulan at lahat. Nilagnat ako. . . but I have no one with me, Ijin. It was just me taking care of myself." My lips unconsciously formed a weak smile.