𝐈𝐧𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐫 | 𝐋𝐢𝐥 𝐌𝐞𝐞𝐜𝐡

41.

Los Cabos, MX | 10:00 AM

SUMMER ~

Today was our last day in Cabo and my thoughts were all over the place as I laid my head on Meech's chest. I knew for a fact that this was the person that I wanted to be with forever. When we are in a good space it's like I'm the happiest person in the world. However I still hold the memories of the other times whereas I felt down and low. On the plane Demetrius asked me if I was seeing someone else in LA and if that's why I've been spending so much time there. I'm not going to lie that question actually made me laugh a little. One, because it was such a random question and two, because I thought I got caught up. However that question made me wonder why would he think like that and if it was coming from his own guilt. I wouldn't past him to be out here doing some stupid again so whatever.

That moment did make me realize that I needed to make a decision about what we were going to do next in our relationship. Our child was now nine months and time was just passing by. I didn't want to be engaged forever. I think what held me up was the anxious feeling of needing to get my lick back first. I guess I just wanted a moment where I felt as if I could finally breathe and move on. This would also mean that I would need to cut Duke off which I planned to do as soon as we get back home. For now I just needed to keep myself in the clear of things.

I heard someone knock on the bedroom door. "Hold on" I flipped the covers back and went to go open the door. Smiling at the sight of Ma and the kids.

"I'm glad everyone is enjoying their little moments watching the sun come up and being romantic but it's time for yall to get these kids" She handed me Dylan and Kayla came inside the room as she was talking on facetime with her dad. "Alright now let me go drop him off to Nikole" she said referring the Sincere.

I noticed she was dressed in a beautiful sundress and a straw hat. "Where you going?" I questioned because the only activity we had was to board a yacht later around twelve.

"I'm going to go enjoy my morning. I have a spa appointment and then I'm going shopping in the local area. Yall must have forgot that I'm on vacation too"

"I know that's right! Go enjoy yourself I'll see you later" After closing the door I sat Dylan on the bed and he immediately crawled over to Demetrius slapping his face to wake him up while I started to pull out our swimsuits and clothes for the day.

After getting the kids and myself ready for the day I went to go find the girls. I spotted Taina by the pool with her kids and joined them. "Hey how did I know you guys were going to be out here" I sat down in a pool chair next to her while Kayla ran up to play with Essex.

"Well I figured everyone else would still be sleep so I just got them ready and came out to enjoy the sun until everyone else got up" Taina locked her phone giving me he undivided attention. Reading the worried expression on my face. "What's wrong?"

"When the whole JT, thing happened did you at any point feel bad?" I whispered because you never know who was around listening.

Taking off her shades Taina nodded "Did I? I felt horrible after a while mainly because I couldn't stop thinking about what would my kids think if I was the reason our family was broken although their dad did way worse things"

"So how did you get over it? Like did you just up and stop talking to him and move forward with Herb or what?"

"I'm going to be honest sometimes I find myself drifting off thinking about Jayson, It was like he was a fantasy of mine and once I was able to not think about him I could live a little. Because lord knows that man had me in a chokehold" They both laughed. "But I think it's just because you are getting your first taste of standing up for yourself and branching out so just chill. If you really want to be with Meech, you'll break things off with Duke when you're serious"

Nodded my head as I listened to T talk, I felt my nerves dying down. Looking back I could hear Nikole and Harold voice as they argued per usual.

"Wait what is this called again?" Harold asked picking at his plate "Davinchi?"

"It's call Ceviche dumb ass" She shook her head

"Whatever it is I ain't fucking with it, it taste nasty as hell"

Nikole laughed taking a seat next to me "That's because you're used to Chicken, waffles and hot wings from the strip club Hoodrat"

"I'm not a Hoodrat that's for the females, I'm a Hoodlum learn the difference" he shot back at her.

I cut their argument short "Umm excuse me we were having a nice peaceful conversation before yall came over here" looking down at my phone I didn't realize how long I've been out here talking with Taina. "Where are the rest of the guys?"

"Do I look like a Airtag? Shit I don't know where them niggas at. I really only came downstairs to eat lunch but was harassed by a alley cat instead" While pointing at Nikole he quickly got up and ran off before she could hit him.

"They act just like some big ass kids. Come on, let's get this day started" I stood up and adjusted Dylan onto my hip. "I promise, I don't even want to go home it's so beautiful here"

Later That Night

Per request we held a bonfire for the last night of the vacation and it was a really a vibe.

"Okay so this next activity is something different. I seen it on a movie. Pretty much each couple walks away from the group and can either tell their partner something they've always wanted to.. It has to be something new to them it could be good or bad that's up to yall" Nikole was the worst as giving out instructions.

"Well I'm cold so I'm staying right here by the fire, so the rest of yall can gone on" I motioned for them to go away. When Demetrius and I were left alone I turned towards him. "Okay what's something you've always wanted to tell me?"

"Umm" I can tell he was thinking carefully about what he wanted to say "When we first got together and even till this day there are times where I don't think I deserve you. I mean I was fucking up real bad at the beginning"

I nodded in agreeance "Yeah Real bad"

"Nah deadass I really thought you would've left me by now. Especially when you told me the shit you been through before, I really didn't mean to add on to that. I'm just glad you've given me the chance to actually get my shit together and stand by me"

Damn, The feeling I had right now was remorseful

"Wow.. Since we being honest I'm surprised I stayed too" I was quiet for a while as I thought about what I wanted to say. "So around the time you were fucking up I kind of started talking to someone else" I lied about the time since it was recent I just couldn't pull myself together to say that.

Now If we are being honest the term Talking was the truth because I haven't had sex with Duke. I've been on multiple dates with him, we hung out a few times and just a lot of flirting. There was one time where I was tempted to let it go down but just couldn't pull myself to actually do it. Duke respected it.

Seeing Meech's face change I quickly intervened and continued my statement "Before you say anything it was a long time ago and it didn't go far at all"

"Who was it Summer?"

Looking down as my hand rested on my lap "I'm not going to tell you because you don't know him at all and it's irrelevant and doesn't matter"

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I mean in Summer's defense she did tell the truth.. well something like that 🙃