Our Secret - Tom Kaulitz

What are you really like?

Lina pov

There was another race tonight, Lin insisted I go. It's been 2 days since the talk I had with Tom and I was desperately trying to forget about him but I couldn't. I didn't know what to think of him, I wondered if he'd be the Tom everyone thought he was or the Tom I saw in the alley.
The night came pretty quick, I put on a red mini dress and some leggings underneath (Lin bought the oulfit for me.) and I brought the same leather jacket. Lin wore a white mini dress just like mine and black tight highs and a grey jacket. She looked way more beautiful than I did.

We eventually made it to the mysterious underground show, all their cars shining as bright as ever. I found Tom's car quickly, he was waving at the huge crowd and had the same girl as before all over him. He was looking in the crowd and spotted me and I nearly fled when he mumbled something to his brother Bill before walking towards me. Lin giggled when he came to where I was at and I nearly cringed when he said the following. "Glad to see you again beautiful." With the same stupid smile as before. He called over to the long haired boy Georg and they both lifted me up over the barrier before I could even process anything.
"What the fuck!?" I finally blurted out once they let me go and Tom grabbed my hand roughly. The crowd whistled and started "ooo"ing while I was being literally dragged to this man's car. "What the hell are you doing let me go!?" Tom shushed me quickly and as we reached his car the girl that was once all over him was now running towards us practically tripping over her heels. "Tom sweetheart wasn't I going to ride with you?" Her baby voice was clearly forced. Tom sighed and turned in her direction while pulling me behind him. "No, she is." I moved in front of him and looked at him in anger. "No the fuck I'm not?? You dragged me out, stop this!!" The crowd grew confused, hearing the commotion. "Do not make a scene." His voice was quiet, he sounded pissed. What the fuck first he's being a bitch, then a gentleman and now he's pissed at ME? Is he bipolar or some shit?? "I'll do whatever I wa-" He covered my mouth before I could say anymore and swung the car door open and gently but quickly shoved me in the seat and shut the door with a loud slam. "Tom!?" The girl whined, she's really annoying, equally as annoying as Tom. "Shut up, leave." He looked really angry, more frustrated if anything. The girl was silent, she just kissed his cheek and walked into the darkness of the crowds. Tom nodded to the others and hopped in his car, quickly starting it and making his car roar loudly. The silence was so loud.

"So are you going to say anything??" I finally said as he tapped on his wheel waiting for a lady in barely any clothes to come in between his and Bills car to let them know when to begin. "Why did you drag me in here?!" I was pissed. "I didn't want to drive with that annoying- girl in my seat." He's acting weird, like, weirder than he did before. "You're lying." Without warning he slammed his fist and the car basically flew luckily the windows weren't down so my hair didn't get messed up but we were going fast I clung onto the leather seat for dear life. He didn't say a word the entire race but he made it 1st and he was smiling as the crowd cheered his name and held up signs for him and his brother, some were for Gustav and Georg too, I even noticed Lin holding up one for them.

I turned to Tom, he looked at me and held onto my shoulder. "You alright?" His breathing was quick and heavy as if he ran for miles. "Yeah." I continued. "But seriously, why do you act so differently from when we were in that alley.?" He stopped smiling and I saw that soft expression again. "I-" Suddenly the car swung open and Bill grabbed Tom and dragged him to get his reward. I sighed getting out of the car and standing under the shade where no lights were. I don't understand this guy, what is he truly feeling? Is this just how he really acts? He looks more confident this way.

Suddenly the girl from before came from behind me and grabbed my shoulder exactly where Tom had. "So he does like you." Her voice was in reality deep and honestly scary. It took me a moment to process what she said. "What?" She stood in front of me putting a hand on her slim hip. "You heard me you snake." I stood there in such confusion I didn't even realize she called me a snake. "Don't try anything, he may care about you and may think he loves you but he only loves you because you've got an attractive body." She paused. "In his eyes of course." She laughed, making me instantly both mad and insecure.
Before I could say anything I noticed Tom and Bill coming to us and she quickly moved to my side.

"What's going on?" Tom said, pushing the girl aside and getting in-between us while Bill slowly went behind him and towards me. "Nothing I just wanted to meet her!!" She said in that stupid voice. "Yeah and then you called me a fucking snake." Bill held my hand gently, his touch was so much different than Toms. "Come with me." Tom grapped the girls arm and she whined in pain. I can't lie, I felt bad because I would've been a little scared if someone as strong as that man grabbed me that hard but she didn't have to be so rude. It's not like Tom actually liked me at all, she was just insecure and I'm not sure why she's beautiful.. her attitude isn't though. "Hey you okay?" My attention went to Bill who was still holding me gently, he seemed really nice I didn't even realize I never got a chance to talk to him or the others only Tom. "Yeah.." I sighed. So much is happening I'm so confused. Bill gave me a reassuring smile and patted my back which kinda made me feel weird but it was comforting considering I just got somewhat bullied for no reason. I looked at the girl who was being basically yelled at, it was too loud to hear what he was saying but she looked both sad and mad.
"Ignore them, I'm sorry if she gave you any trouble." Bill was so much sweeter than Tom, or at least less confusing and bipolar. "Thanks, um, can I ask you a question?" I gulped. "Sure!" He smiled, it looked so genuine it was really nice. "Thank you.. uh is Tom always like that? You know, kinda rough and mean-ish?.." I didn't want to sound rude especially to Toms brother of all people, I was just curious I wanted an answer from someone who I'm guessing was always with him. "Oh, yeah kinda!" He chuckled. "He's always been really tough with others, even girls who like him." So was that nice guy just an act or what?? "Oh. So he's not really like the kind of guy to be really nice and gentle?" Bill laughed. "Not really! He is nice with me but that's just because he's my brother, he is a good guy though I can promise that, just not so gentle with many people." Bill smiled weaker while looking at Tom. "He's only ever really happy when he races, he likes the attention and love people give him." I smiled, at least he isn't so bad I guess. I've met worse men. "Thanks for answering my questions." I looked at Bill with a sweet smile and he returned it, he softly patted my head which I found silly. "You're good, don't become one of those girls like Hana okay?" So her name was Hana. "Alright, I'll keep that promise!" We both laughed.

I turned to Tom once more, he stopped talking to Hana and closed his eyes for a few minutes before coming towards me and Bill. I don't know if that one talk was just a rare interaction with Tom but I'll cherish it, I don't know if I'll keep coming to these races. I just wished he'd act more like how he did at the cafe, he's more tolerable.

Something makes me want to continue seeing him, even if he's really confusing, I want to get closer with him. If Hana was being honest and he actually does like me like that I want him to say it even just once. I don't care how I feel about him I want to know what he's really like, I want to find out the real Tom.