9. shame

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(Patrick's POV)

It's been about 5 minutes since Y/n left and I can't fucking believe I just told her that. She didn't even answer!

I have to kill her. I don't know what to do with that girl anymore, she makes me even more insane. Everything about her is somehow perfect and I can't stand this anymore.

I have a plan and If it fucks up, I don't even know anymore. But it will, it always does.

"Hey. Sorry about earlier I was a little drunk, can we sort this all out tomorrow if you come over again?" I send her

She can't let go of me and I know it.

"It's okay, sure I'll be there at 7 pm." She answeres after a few minutes

"Great!"

I know I said it would be stupid to kill her, but what did you expect? I can't fall in love with her. She's just like the other's, she's no different.

She's just like her brother.

I put some music on and start cooking for tomorrow. We're gonna be having a little meat and potatos.  She'll love it for a last meal.

Suddenly I hear my phone ring, for the what? 100th time today.

"What is it again?" I ask

"Hey Patrick!" I hear Courtney Lawrence say, my ex I suppose.

"What is it this time Courtney? Not enough money for lithium?"

"No Patrick.. Luis is gone for a few days and I was thinking we should have a little fun.." She says and I can hear her being on some kind of a drug

"No Courtney, I have a busy day tomorrow." I tell her

"Oh come on! We haven't talked in a while, have we?"

"Yes and there's a great reason for that"

"Forget it Patrick!" I hear her yell and hang up the phone

Courtney is almost as perfect looking but, I think the inside of her head is completely empty. And so is her husband's.

It is currently 9 pm and I'm getting ready to go to bed since I have a busy day tomorrow. Few meetings, dinner, work and Y/n.

I don't underatand how I could act like that! God she has to be dead, as soon as possible.

The way she's gonna scream my name when I stab her in the heart. She'll look so beautiful.

I want to stab her to death and play around with her blood. That's all I want.

I love the way she smells so soft. Her voice is angelic and I could get lost in her eyes everytime I see them.

Now all of that is going to waste, shame.

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