𝑶𝒖𝒓 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕-ᴰᴰ ᴼˢᴬᴹᴬ

005- 𝑬𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒄 𝑯𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕,

My body trembled from the wind from the Uber window that swept across my skin. My body was full of painkillers and vitamins. I don't know how I got to the hospital. It wasn't the first time something like this happened anyways.
I looked through the bag the nurse gave me, trying to find my phone.

*32 Missed calls from Darii*
*5 missed calls from Unknown number*
*10 missed calls from Jayden*

*54 messages from Darii*
"11 messages from Unknown number*
*3 messages from Jayden*

I was scared to open the Unkown number, I hoped it wasn't my Father. Since the school called an ambulance to take me here, they had to have contacted my guardian let them know.

I opened the messages from the unknown number.

"Yo"-10:35
"When you see this lmk"10:36

"Hey, u good now?"1:20
"What happened to you?" 1:20
"That nigga did sumn?" 1:23
"I could hurt him for you" 1:24

"It's Dd btw" 1:28

"Ddot worried abt u" 1:29

"I know he hurt you" 1:35

"I won't tell nobody" 1:40

"Lmk when u good?" 1:45

I guess he was the one that took me to the school office. It almost seemed like he cared about me. I'm glad someone cared. I quickly responded I was okay. I opened the messages from Ddot, it was just him spamming my phone asking me if I was alright.

"Clo, u better be alr, who ever hurt you ima fuck them up deadass." 2:13

"Hey Dari, I'm okay. Stop worrying." 3:47

I exited out the messages between me and Dari, still contemplating on whether or not I should open Jayden's messages. It was only 3 messages.
Just 3 messages.

"Get your shit."
"Ion even want u here no more"
"Go stay with your dad or sumn 😂" 1;17

My heart dropped. I can't go back there. I can't go back to him. I don't have anywhere else to go.
I didn't know what to do anymore. I wish I didn't go to the hospital. I wish it was worse than a concussion. I wish I wasn't here anymore.

Tears streamed down my face as the Uber still continued to go into the direction to the house that wasn't a home. I just wanted it to be over.

As the Uber pulled up to the front of the house. I could see that Jayden's car wasn't there. He wasn't there. He didn't even want to see me before I left. He never cared about me. When I first met him I thought he was the best thing that happened to me. I thought he would be my forever love. My heart still beats for him. He helped me through my lowest.
Now he made me go lower.

I opened the door with the spare key in the mailbox we never used. I saw the bottle that he hit me with now empty with smudged fingerprints. I walked through the house that I was glad to leave. I could only be happy about leaving for a minute. Only happy until I had to figure out what I was going to do.

I went upstairs to get my clothes and my belongings. Nothing felt like it was mine. I didn't feel like I belonged in this world. It felt like a simulation. The walls around me felt face and my mind felt disassociated from my body. Like I was controlling a robot with no heart. I felt like I was transplanted. I slowly breathed and felt more disconnected from the areas around me. I felt the floor pushing up under my feet and my brain compressing like it was trying to touch my jaw.

"I was stronger than these stupid emotions" is how I tried to convince myself from falling.
I needed to leave.
I needed to leave this shit hole and get away. I didn't have anywhere to stay. My chest got heavier and I fell to the ground uncontrollably. My body felt as if a magnet was pulling me. The lump in my throat wanted to burst. It felt as if it was swelling and swelling.  My face started to feel hot and my head hurt like I was furrowing my brows for hours.
I finally opened my mouth and let the sobs escape from my mouth.
Tears flowed down my face , as if I was in the shower feeling the water flow down my face.
My hands trembled and my cries got louder.
I poured all the salt water out from my eyes. I cried and cried even until I couldn't feel the hot tears streaming down my face.

I laid there in the floor staring into space at the wall. I don't even know how long I laid there. I didn't come back to reality until I felt my phone vibrate. I got up getting ready to leave this house.
I could hear laughter downstairs so I walked down the stairs quietly and took the hallway leading to the side door so people wouldn't know I was there.

The wind blowed onto my face as soon as I stepped outside. The cold hair brushed against my numb skin. I could feel my limbs still twitching from the medication the doctors gave me. Now that I left I didn't know where I could go. I didn't know who to call.

I opened my phone to call Darrian. I hoped that he could help me somehow.

*call ringing*

"Yo Cleo??"

"Hey Dari"

"Cleo what the fuck happened, you not answering texts and calls got niggas worried"

"I'm sorry, can you pick me up"

"Send ya lo"

"Thank you"

I sat at the side of the street because my legs felt as if they were about to give out. I needed a new beginning.

I can't do it anymore .

The elastic from my heart was stretched.

Sorry for the wait😭 I've been busy with school. I'll try to update again tmrw, I just wanted to get this one out.
Anny will also be updated tonight or tmrw