pose || b.e

fifteen

soren

you'd think i'd be so happy to say i went on a date with billie. but i can feel myself getting distant.

it's been a couple days, and i haven't texted her. i haven't even seen her because i haven't left my apartment

plus when i went to work, my boss told me that it'd be best if i took a break. i didn't hesitate and left the building cause fuck you and this place.

"iris, i'm gonna drag you out of this bed in a sec." miko was here helping me, he snuck away from my mom to come and see me. that bitch. anyways...

"let go of me damn." he let go as i got more and more madder by my tone. i hid under my covers holding myself, "can you turn off the air."

soon it got less cooler here. i was thinking of so much shit i can't even explain it all. but most of them were about billie, and how i might just fuck up everything.

"iris you have to eat."

"I'm not hungry."

"you haven't eaten in three days."

"okay? i'm still not hungry." he sighed and closed my door, i tried to fall asleep but then i started to think people were stalking me.

i got up and started pacing around my room, almost tripped over shit but i caught myself. i still have billie's hat, and every time i look at the fucking hat i mentally yell at myself.

she's texted me earlier but i acted like i didn't see the message at all. i haven't been on any socials, because she seems like the person to stalk and see if someone is just ignoring her.

and is, but she doesn't have to know that.

--

ick.

soren, hi. i genuinely want to apologize, i just found out that valerie is the one who aired that shit. and that i should've never opened her dm. you're my best friend and i should always believe you before someone else.

also billie texted me and told me to check up on you even if we're not friends at the moment. she cares, so answer her fucking messages.

uhhhh, isaac. lol, uhm she texted you?

through instagram.

how'd she find your ig?
are you lying to me?

i've lied enough.

isaac.

its a long fucking story, long story short her brother came up to me and she was there with him bla bla bla.

ill stop lying... now.

okay, uhm. can you text billie and
say i lost my phone.

she's gonna ask how i know.

shit lie, you're good at it.

i threw my phone down next to me and stared at the ceiling, the air feels so good after you take a shower. seriously.

rosey

i don't believe him, text me back.

why me, what the hell. if she that much she should come and see me herself. i'll open the door, i did it for my brother, and i'll do it for her.

my phone kept going off so i powered it off, it shouldn't be this damn hard to text someone back. like it makes me anxious while staring at the text.

my watch started going off soon after. i don't know how to turn that shit off so i put it in my drawer.

as soon as i was about to fall asleep, there was multiple loud knocks at the door. "soren. open this shit." it was isaac.

should i stay or should i go?

i'll go and open it. i guess.

an: sorry this chapter's short, uhm writers block is beating my ass.