pose || b.e

three

soren

"you have to get out there sweetheart. you don't want to die lonely." i sighed at my mom, she's always been judgmental and openly homophobic.

it's disgusting.

"i won't die lonely, why do you always say this?" i felt my throat closing along with my eyes getting watery by the second. she snickered a little through the phone and i just bit my lip.

"everytime i call you, nothing new, you're boring soren." i bit my lip harder, i stayed silent for a while until she spoke again.

"but every time i call your brother he's with his girlfriend kiayare."

"soren, I'm serious about finding you a little boyfriend."

"i'm not attracted to boys mom." i spoke while raising my voice, why is she so worried about me when i'm not even living with her anymore?

"bummer, they're so pleasurable." i hung up on her so quickly, that's just disgusting. when i came out it was hell, she put me in therapy getting me a male therapist like i was going to be attracted to him.

i have one sibling, but he's out of town and i don't know when he's coming back. right now the closest person i have to a sibling is isaac. and he gets me so well.

i haven't been to work in a week, it's tuesday. and i have to go meet billie at the park in... shit it's 2:50.

i jumped up and put on my clothes. i already took a shower so i just put something on. soon my phone vibrated on the counter, i hurried over to my phone while fixing myself.

hii, i'm omw.

okay, me too.

greatt

i just lied so hard, i still need to get my camera and my necklace on.

i ran around my apartment looking for my camera, i remember putting it in the corner in my- yeah it's in my room. i almost busted my shit to get to my camera, anything to get this over with.

i say it like i don't like it.

i went in there and it was immediately in my eyesight. i picked it up and again i almost fell but i caught myself and left quickly.

-

"keep that pose." i spoke out to her and she froze once i said that. i took it and sent her a thumbs up, she smiled shyly after i did so.

"thank you for helping me." she thanked me cheerfully, she was biting back a smile. cute, i smiled back politely and picked up my camera.

"it's my job." she rolled her eyes playfully at my statement, billie then picked up her phone from the bench. her facial expressions changed really quickly.

she looked around rapidly, forgetting i was in front of her. she jumped a little when she saw me. she looked back down with a bright blush on her cheeks.

she cursed under her breath while giggling and looked up at me with a weak smile. "thank you again." she walked off in a hurry, i hope she doesn't fall.

i watched her leave safely, and into her car... that's definitely the sexiest car i've ever seen... the way it drove off was so sexy.

my phone pinged again, isaac, what could he want.

i keep seeing this brunette and her
ginger boyfriend.

it makes me wanna cry.

welp, maybe it's the universe telling
your ass to find someone new.

but she's sooo pretty?

she must be beautiful if she's taken.

fuck you soren
but how'd the shoot go with billie.

it went well, why?

idk did you make her blush
like she did you?

ISAAC. it wasn't a date,
it was just a shoot.

suree. you know you want to
go on a date with her.

i barely know her.

that's why you go on dates.

bye isaac.

i hate him so badly, but he's completely harmless. just desperate for that brunette.