pose || b.e

sixteen

billie

i haven't talked to soren in a while, and it's bothering me. making me feel i did something to make her distance from me.

my brother told me it would be okay, and that i didn't need to worry about her. but i definitely didn't listen to him and kept worrying.

isaac texted me and said that she lost her phone, but that wouldn't make sense because the last time i talked to her. she didn't like isaac, and the only way he would've heard from her was by texting her.

dumbasses.

"bil, if you're gonna worry about her; go see her." finneas let out making swallow hard as hell.

"no, what if she doesn't want to see me." he sighed as we got up and walked towards the doorway.

"sounds like someone is a pussy." he held his hands on his hips with one of his legs extended to his side. i tried not to laugh but it was too hard.

as i laughed i heard him leave and close my apartment door behind him. maybe i should call her.

i ended up texting her.

sweetheart.

you seriously don't have to lie
to me soren. just tell me if i
did something.

you didn't. and i gotta go

so you're just ignoring me.

no, bil can we talk about this
another time?

nooope. now.

bil no

soren yes.

no.

i'm omw.

billie please don't.

the fuck? are you
hiding something?

no i'm not

then shut the fuck up.
im omw.

she left me on read and i made my way up to her apartment. i looked through the peephole and i could see her laying on the couch, with isaac.

crying.

now if i knock on this door, and i'm the bad guy then... i'm simply blocking her.

when i did knock, isaac opened the door. and stopped me before i could walk in.

"she's really not doing good."

"i wanna hear her say that, not... you." she got up and pushed him out the way then grabbed me pulling me in the apartment.

"i never told you that isaac, stop fucking lying." she had a strong grip on my hand. she wouldn't let go and she was shaking.

she pulled me into her room and locked her door behind us. "soren-"

"billie, you didn't do anything, i just, i'm scared." she let go of my hand while she sat on the bed, i didn't know what to say, i just sat there in silence letting her ramble.

"i'm scared that i might fuck up something. and ruin everything we have; y'know?" i nodded as she smiled sadly. she started playing with her hands so i walked up to her and sat down next to her.

"you won't, i won't let you soren." i wrapped my arm around her shoulder bringing her onto my shoulder. she shook a little, then she started to hyperventilate.

"soren." she shook head whilst crying on me. i didn't say anything all i did was rub her arm. it was cold, she was cold. she wasn't even warm.

it was freezing in this apartment, i like cold but not fucking antarctica.

"let it out sweetheart, let it out."

an: sorry, uhm i haven't been as active on wattpad at all. ive been back to school shopping😪