chapter 0 - prologue
soundrack: american teenager by ethel cain
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...how do I start?
I'm not religious. I never really was.
You're not gonna believe me that I'm not religious when I tell you that I visit the church every sunday. It's not like I go there voluntarily - my parents are VERY religious. And they think I am too.
I'm 17 and I'm a freshman. But that's not really important. Neither is how many friends I have and what I do in my free time.
When I go to church, I forget who I am. It's like I'm someone else. It's almost like I'm... no one. I'm not good, nor bad. I'm not mediocre.
It gives me the power to be just like everyone else. Suddenly, I'm not a loser. I'm not the popular girl or the jock. I'm just one of the God worshippers. Or... that's who everyone thinks I am. That's my whole persona.
But when the priest has a homily, the last think I think about is God.
I think about everything else except God.
I think about the magnificent ceiling in the church and the beautiful statues.
I think about what I'm going to have for lunch.
But most of the time, I think about love.
I've never been in love. I met guys I found attractive, cute, pretty, even magnificent. But I've never felt that kind of spark towards any of them.
Like when your hands meet and you both feel the electricity. When you have eye contact and you feel the tingles. When they smile and your ribcage fills with butterflies.
I've never felt that kind of way.
When the homily ends, the whole church falls silent. After a while, the priest stands up and so do we.
"I believe in one God."
The thing is... I don't.
Or, to be exact... I didn't. But everything has changed.
That's all that matters.
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author's note
hiya!
this is my first book i've ever wrote on wattpad, even though i've been a writer since i was a child :)
VERY IMPORTANT - english is NOT my first language. feel free to correct me when i make a mistake :)
thank you for reading!!♥
- alice
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