A new life

You fade into me

October 19th, 2009
Location: unknown

Jillian: it was 1:23am and we were driving back to toms house.he looked sad, cold. He asked in a quiet tone if I wanted to stay with him for the night or alone. I said my apartment because I felt safe there. He said ok and we drove to my apartment complex walking to it and he asked if I wanted his number. I said sure and gave it to him snd he said in a serious tone "if you feel unsafe tell me if anything is wrong give me a call I will be here" i said ok and gave him a smile and he returned one to me. For that I pecked him on the cheek and his face started to glow red. He said bye and left and got in his car at the apartment parking lot and I smiled and walked to my apartment and opened the door and walked straight to my candle to lit up my moms gave me. Thats the only reason I really wanted to come. And to take a shower.i went to my room texting Tom saying  "thank you for helping me<3"  and he replied with "no problem I just wanted you to get home safe and I will always be here for you when you need it." I took of my clothes in my room and got a towel from the dryer I could walk around naked if I wanted to but i didn't  but to get my towel. I walked to the bathroom and locked the door turning on the shower and putting down the towel stepping in and stood their washing my hair and body. I didn't feel clean tho. I felt dirty still I did everything again and again and the same feeling. I felt dirty from the mans touch and what he did. What he said to me will forever haunt me. I started to cry snd sat in the shower in complete silence but the water and the sound from my cries slowing fading away. I got out and dried off. I was trying to go to bed but I couldn't. I did get sA before but nothing was like this. Nothing could beat this. I felt disgusting I hated myself for going.i fell asleep crying and woke up the next morning to spam text from Paige. A voicemail of her about to cry broke me.in it she said "Jillian are you ok are you safe please tell me as soon as your ok please I love you so much" and the texts were asking if I was ok. I said I was. But i wasn't.

One month later

Bills pov:

Tom was acting like crazy ever since Jillian left. First two weeks he sat in his room if any of us tried to ask whats wrong he screamed and broke things. I was scared for him. Not of him but for him my brother was in so much pain. That I caused i wanted to go to the race he didn't but he did for me and thats how we got into this mess. The only person keeping me from falling apart was the boys and Paige. My sweet Paige. She made everyone happy and she even helped around the house none of the bumpers we had and have now did that. I loved her but i didn't know how to confess.

Paige's pov:

Its been a month and I've been going back and forth to the houses. Jillian still couldn't face anyone but me. She was terrified. Who wouldn't. Tom told me he got his gang members to kill the guy and now he was all over the new a few weeks ago. It was crazy. Tom was stuck in his room for two weeks straight not talking to anyone. Then after the two weeks he started to leave during the night bringing back a chick and fucking. Then some nights I heard him scream with the girls him saying to leave and the girls were saying why the fuck are you calling me Jillian do you have someone else. It was crazy indeed  but I knew I needed to mind my Business. Its been happing like that for now 2 weeks and a half. some days Paige wouldn't talk to me but she is a bit more open. She was never like that. Always trying to talk to everyone having a blast enjoying herself with her best friends.tonight Tom brought a girl home and I had to talk to him. I said Tom I need to talk to you and we fought back and forth and he agreed and he said to the girl "I'll meet you upstairs" I screamed at him saying " WHAT THE FUCK SRE YOU DOING WITH A NEW GIRL EVERY SINGLE FUCKING NIGHT SND THEN I HEARD THE GIRL SAYING STOP CALLING ME JILLIAN AND I HEAR YOU TOO SOMETIMES SO IF YOU WANT TO BE WITH JILLIAN AT LEAST GO FUCKING SEE HER" he looked at me shocked then mad. He screamed back " WELL MAYBE IF SHE ANSWERED MY FUCKING CALLS AND MAYBE WE WOULD BE TOGETHER" I said in a quiet tone that was filled with hate and anger "you really think she would just call you back after being sA by a man that almost raped her that groped her and so much more you think she would be talking to anyone right now? It took me a fucking week of me asking to talk to her every time she said no. Then finally when she said yes she looked horrible she looked skinny and pale and sad like she didn't eat for days so you really fucking think she Would call you after what she has been thru?" Tom looked at me with pain in his eyes and got the girl to leave and driving off alone to who knows where.