A new life

Why not someone else

December 18th 2009
Location: Marseille, France

Tom pov:

Its been two horrible fucking weeks without Jillian. I tried texting her but every time she never answered. She didnt block me so I guess that was good. I miss her more than anything. Why tho? Ive never felt like this for a girl. I wanted to stop by her apartment but i didn't know the number and Paige never gave me it. I tried to follow her but she found out and left before I could find our what number it was. I went up to the front desk to ask for it but she said she wasn't aloud. I asked güstav to try and track her phone down but nothing it just lead to her apartment complex. I guess she didn't want me to be around her. Was she scared of me? She must of found out he got killed. I didn't know and I wanted to know.after two weeks I started to go clubbing and getting drunk as hell and finding a girl that had brown hair and blue eyes that kinda looked like Jillian just a tiny bit and every time we got to my house and after they got so fucking mad and left?! For what?and we couldn't go racing for a month because the cops have been on the lookout for me because someone saw me beating up the son of the bitch that hurt Jillian snd reported it.why did she have to go thru it. Why not someone else.

Jillian:

Its been a week and Paige has been trying to talk to me. Ive pushed everyone away. Even my best friend. Why. Why not someone else.I've gotten skinner. I have been eating every other day. I make myself eat or else I just wont im starving to death almost. I finally let Paige talk to me after a week. She told me the guy that touched me got killed. Now its been two more weeks and I've gotten better. Im scared now. Im scared of going out to see someone that will hurt me the same way the guy did. Will tom do it if I come back to him. I don't know. Im sad. All the fucking time. Its honestly sad. I feel depressed that I probably am. I wanna talk to Tom but i don't wanna get hurt. After the club I already  got hurt two times. Ive gotten way better I gained 5 pounds since I lost 12. I feel like im healing slowly. I want to see Tom again and Paige said today I could. She would tell tom so he would be happy I suppose? I was nervous. Its been a month without tom. I never felt more alone then I did before. I wanted him. Just him.

Tom pov:

Paige said Jillian is feeling better and she wants to see me again. Im so fucking nervous i don't even know what to do with myself. Im sweating bullet all I want to do I hug her. Be as close to her as I possibly can. I need her.i want her. I crave her.

She was coming around 5pm and it was 4pm so I got into the shower shaved my face and down there just incase. And I washed myself three times to smell good for her. I put my favorite oil in my cornrows to make them shiny. I brushed my teeth twice and out mouth wash in and some gum. And for outfit I put on some black boxers with black baggy jeans and  a black shirt and last but not least a black bandana to wrap around my forehead.i was so excited. I never felt this for anyone. It was 4:56 and I heard the door open. I saw Jillian walk thru that door my jaw dropped. She was beautiful. She wore a dark dark red dress that went to the floor that had a slit in it that was up to the start of her thigh and down to the floor. Her hair was pin straight with some cute makeup up not too noticeable. I ran up to her and hugged her. It was the longest hug I ever gave but i didn't care. She was here. With me. I asked her how she has been and she said she was doing better but missed me a lot. I gave her another hug and said I missed you more.we were going out to a fancy Italian restaurant. Me and Jillian drove in my car and the others in theirs. I opened the door for her and shut it. Her big goofy smile was back. I hopped into my side and I started the car and played "fade into me"I heard it on the radio and I immediately knew it was me and Jillian's song.it wasn't no where near my music taste but it felt right.

Jillian pov:

Tom opened the door for me and I smiled because of his charm for me. He quickly went to the other side and hopped in. He started to play this song "fade into me" i don't know why but this was our song. I heard it when I was coming hear and I knew it was ours.i missed Tom. I craved Tom. I need Tom. We arrived at the restaurant and wow it was beautiful. It had statues everywhere you turned to and paintings.
Tom was next to me and our hands were close. I wanted to hold it but did he for me? I didn't know.

Tom pov: we arrived at the restaurant and it had the best food I went their with the guys twice. I reserved a table right when Paige told me Jillian wanted to see me. We were standing their for what felt like forever but it wasn't. Me and Jillian were closer than we thought our hands touching. I wanted to hold her hand so I did. And she let me. Ive never felt happier. I really like jillian. But I think I love her.