Kanan was reading and what he read made him want to cry.
To Kanan,Hera,Chopper,Zeb and Sabine,
I am sorry but I can't live anymore. I hope you find this after I die. Since I have no living relatives and you guys were nice enough to take in a stupid street rat these are for you. This is the will of Ezra Bridger:
To Zeb I leave my helmet collection, maybe you can use it for bucket head smashing.
To Sabine I leave you my sketch books, in hopes you will see my artistic side.
To Chopper I leave my tool kit and lock pick, get someone to repair you with the kit and sneak into Zebs room to prank him.
To Hera I leave my energy slingshot, just so you can have something else besides a small handheld blaster.
And finally I leave Kanan my journal, just cause I feel like you would like to know a little bit more about myself. All my other stuff you can split among yourselves.
I am sorry to you guys for the inconvenience to any of your future missions that needed me in the vents but I needed to do this. I need to be with my family. Goodbye.
After Kanan was done reading he had tears in his eyes, "how could the kid do this to himself?" He looked up to see Sabine and Hera crying their eyes out. Zeb was sad but Kanan could see a couple of tears in the lasats eyes. As for Chopper, he was just standing right there but everyone could tell that he was pretty much sad.
"Kanan I think you need to look at that journal of his. It could have stuff in there that could help us figure out why he would do this," Sabine said. I didn't want to 'cause it's his privacy which he gave to me but that was when he died. But he did leave it to you so I bet it would be okay for a quick peek. I nodded and walked towards Ezra and Zebs room. I got there, 'should I...yes I'm doing this for Ezra.' He walked into his room and started going through his backpack. He saw all this stuff but he saw his journal on the top of everything. He opened it up and read it. The first entry was about his 7th birthday. He smiled at the slightly messy but readable writing of the kid. He then went to the next one which was a little bit more depressing. Each entry was more depressing than the last. He got to one where he saw his Uncle Zeebo on the ground shot dead. And how he gave him a proper burial and then had to live on the streets cause he didn't have the funds to pay for food and bills to keep the house. The Jedi read and read. He got to a page that happened about three years ago.
I can't take it anymore the stealing to survive, the taunting, the torture. It's just to much for me. I have decided to shoot myself so I can leave and be with my family.
It failed my attempt. I shot myself but something bumped my arm so I only shot myself in the stomach instead of my heart. The heart would have killed me instantly my stomach on the other hand would kill me slowly and painfully. Since it was so slow somebody found me and took me to the hospital where they fixed me up and kept me there for a couple weeks. Now I'm back in the street.
He really tried to kill himself other than this time. He kept reading and all the entries from then on were either on thoughts of suicide or attempts. Then he got to the page for today. 'Oh how I wished I knew I would've helped him get through these problems. Kanan walks back to the rest of the crew and they all stared at him.
"So what did you find?" Zeb asked. He looked at them with sad eyes.
He sighed, "Apparently he's been doing these attempts for about three years. He lost his parents on his 7th birthday by the Empire and he lost his Uncle the same way a couple months later. He was living on the streets since then until we picked him up." They all looked pretty much depressed about their youngest member and his horrible life.
Hera cleared her throat, "We're just gonna have to help him after this. We're also setting new rules he is not allowed to go out by himself anymore he will have someone with him at all times. Kanan you can feel what he's feeling most times so try to warn us to keep a look out for him when he feels sad or depressed again. Does everyone got it?" They all nodded. "Good. Kanan can you go get some pajamas from Ezra and Zebs room. I want to get him out of those dirty and uncomfortable clothes." The Jedi nodded and walked back to the room to get the softer lightweight night clothes of the young boy. He walked back into the med bay only to see Hera with a shirt in her hands, looking at Ezra.
"Hera what's wrong?" He asked panic. She just pointed to Ezra. He couldn't belive what he was seeing but from what he saw and read today he believe it now.
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Authors Note:
BOOM! Cliffhanger You'll have to wait till I'm ready to release the next chapter to find out. I'm sooooooo evil. Muhahahahahaha . Right.
