He saw all of them. Well at least from his abdomen all the way to his chest. Kanan saw Ezra littered with scars. Most of them looked old, but a lot look more new. Kanan was shocked. "So he also cut. Seems normal with the suicidal thoughts and actions he has displayed," He said.
"Let's just get him into the pajamas," Hera said. Hera walked over and held him up while Kanan slipped on his shirt then his pants. They laid him back down and covered him up in a huge warm blanket that they always keep in the med bay. They stepped back and looked sadly upon the youngling.
The Jedi asked to no one in particular, "How could this happen? How could a kid so good and nice have everything he loved and cared about to have them taken away from him? How could so much sadness consume one teen?"
The twi'lek pilot put a hand on his shoulder, "Maybe because he hasn't had the kind of love we had. He didn't have anyone for eight years. He might've been abused by people he came in contact with. He will be alright but we need to help him try to forget all those horrible memories and get him to remember the happy times and the good times to come." Kanan knew she was right.
He sighed, "Yeah. Hey it's late you go get some rest, and I'm gonna stay here with Ezra." Hera was gonna protest to this but Kanan was giving her a don't-fight-me-on-this look.
She sighed this time, "Fine, goodnight love." She went over and pecked his cheek. Then she went over to Ezra and placed a gentle kiss on his forehead, "Goodnight Ezra." She turned and left the room.
The man looked at the teen. He kept his gaze on the hurt teen for hours until Sabine came in, "Hey I thought you might need a break." She sounded worried.
He shook his head no, "No I'm good Sabine. Thanks for offering though." She came over and pulled up the stool.
"Kanan I know you're worried about him we all are but it's not gonna make us feel better if we also have to worry about you. So I'll watch the kid while you go get something to eat and to get some rest. Now go and no buts," she said when he opened his mouth to protest but quickly shut it when he knew he wasn't going to win.
The Jedi sighed again, "Fine, but if anything changes you are to alert me immediately. I will be back in a couple of hours." He turned reluctantly and left the med bay. He ate pretty quick and rested for two hours when he woke up and barged into the med bay. Sabine was staring at him with a mad look.
"I was hoping you would be out for the night." He shook his head no. "Fine but you are gonna go to sleep either the easy way or the hard way," she said giving me the look again. She left the room as Kanan took her place in the chair. He didn't go to sleep until hours later when exhaustion took over. He woke up and looked where he was at. And the events from yesterday bombarded his mind. He looked over at the bed and his hurt padawan was still there. The boy was still not moving except for the breathing of his chest. ' Its my fault I should've looked for signs' Kanan thought to himself he kept looking.
He decided that maybe sending calming vibes through meditation and some urges to wake up just might wake him up. With a small smile at the thought of having his padawan awake he quickly got into meditating form and relaxed. Once he knew he was deep in it he started sending urges of waking up he felt the feeling of him slowly coming to so he kept it up he finally felt awareness. He came out of meditation in time to see his padawans eyes slowly open with a flutter and blinked a few times.
"Ugh," Ezra groaned. His master got up and hugged his young padawan. Ezra looked up and had a confused look on his face. "Master? What happened? Where am I?" he asked. His master let go of him from the hug but kept his hands on his shoulders thinking that if he kept a hold of Ezra he can't be taken from him.
Kanan took in a deep breath, "Ezra your in the med bay, you jumped off your tower... trying to commit suicide." Ezra looked disappointed when he heard this. "Ezra are you okay?" The teen shook his head. "What's the matter? Does your head hurt? Are you hungry? Are you..." He was interrupted by Ezra.
"No why am I here? Why am I still feeling pain? I'm not supposed to feel pain," Ezra yelled at Kanan. Kanan could feel waves of anger and confusion coming off the youngling.
The man took a deep breath in, "Ezra we saved you and..." again he was interrupted by Ezra.
"WHAT...WHY? THIS WAS MY CHOICE...THIS WAS WHAT I WANTED," he yelled in an angry tone.
"Ezra we care about you and we don't want to lose you," the kids master said. Kanan saw tears form in the younglings eyes.
"Kanan you don't know me, my past. This was gonna make me happy for once in my life and..." This time his master interrupted the apprentice.
"Ezra I know all about your past you died for a while and we read the letter you left us so I read the journal but then Hera said that you were alive and you were gonna get better. But look enough about the past let's focus on the present and the future. Since you're up and should be able to move in a week or so maybe we can go to maybe Hoth and play in the snow or go somewhere fun."
"No I just want to be by myself," he said as he turned his back on his master. His master was gonna say something upbeat but thought better of it.
He sighed, "Fine just get some rest please." Kanan left the room and Ezra started silently crying himself into sleep.
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Authors Note:
Thank you for being patient with me for this new chapter I've been busy with classes and homework. Hope you are enjoying the story. Remember to comment, vote, and add this story. Follow me and check out my other works.
