Slytherin boys one shots

Theodore Nott - Heartache

we have to talk," theo said abruptly. "about?" I answer slowly, slightly worried. Of course, something had to go wrong right now. we were finally something, the boy I loved my whole life. don't panic. I flash him a warm smile to cover up my panic. "I don't know how to say this, please don't panic. please stay calm, nothing has changed. I'm still the same." he said guiltily. my throat started to close up, even more worried than before. he unbuttoned his cuffing and slowly revealed a large scar on his forearm. my face fell, and the air in the room felt like it had been sucked up. his father was a death eater, the situation suddenly became abundantly clear. no, this has got to be a sick joke, it's not what I think it is. water pooled in my eyes, he can't be everything im against.

"Bella, please say something," he said while reaching for my hand. I pulled my hand away before he could grab it. his eyes darkened, and his brows furrowed as if he was in physical pain.

"death eaters killed my parents." I mustered out. he stumbled onto his knees to reach my eyes and stared at me in agony. "I know, I'm so sorry Arabella please forgive me."

I didn't know what to say, he is everything I detest. "I'm so in love with you, fourth year, yule ball. that was the day I realized I was in love with you. the moment i-i knew I was in love with you was when we were dancing, you looked so beautiful. ive been completely and utterly obsessed with you since then."

I furrowed my brows in confusion, he didn't like me. he shagged pansy parkinson that night. She was walking about it for weeks after that night. "no, you slept w Parkinson that night." I protested, my emotions swaying from anger to confusion.

"because while I was staring at you, you were staring at Mattheo." I scoffed at his remark. I shook my head, "You do not get to love bomb me to distract me from the bloody fact that you're a death eater now, theodore. no not when i've spent my entire life loving you." He wrapped his arms around my stomach and nuzzled his face against my body. He was shaking, "I'm so sorry, I don't deserve to be loved by you."

"I hate you," I seethed. "We were finally happy together theo, you've spoiled everything"

Within in the last few minutes my heart broke in several different ways. Theo slowly ripped out my heart strings one by one. "You're not the same boy i fell in love with first year." I pushed him off of me and left, he didn't follow.

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Days past, he didn't try talking to me. I did the best i could to contain composure around people. But when i returned to my dorm, i closed the curtains and charmed them so i could cry myself to sleep without any interruptions. People noticed that I walked around absentmindedly but they brushed it off when i said i was fine. Theo on the other hand continued to walk the halls with a piece of my heart. I dearly miss my heart, the void is prominent exactly in the way his absence is.

I walked into my dorm, kicked off my shoes, lay down, and cast privacy charms on my curtains. As i settled myself in, i felt parchment under me. I pulled it out from under me expecting a note from one of my dorm mates, a professor, draco malfoy, dolores umbridge, nicolous flamel himself, anyone but from the person it was from.

Arabella,

Please before ripping up this parchment, read what I have to say. I don't expect you to forgive me, what i have done is a betrayal to everyone who has been wronged by the dark lord, most importantly it was a betrayal to you. But the reason I have done what I have done was to spare my fathers life. The dark lord demanded I be recruited or else he'd kill my father. My father was willing to die for me, but i was also willing to die for my father. i couldn't live with myself if he died because of me, bella. i couldn't be left parentless, the loss of my mother nearly drove me insane. It got easier after I met you. But make matters worse, the dark lord ended up killing my father in a fit of rage yesterday. A bit melodramatic, i'm fine i've realized that there are far worse things than death. I don't know if I believe in the afterlife but i hold out hope that he is with my mother; the only person he truly loved. He never loved me, but he loved my mother and now that i understand the feeling; i've forgiven him from the horrible childhood he provided me with. Im an unmarked death eater, he'll soon mark me no doubt. There's no out for me, once i'm initiated my life is over. I will no longer be my own person, i'll be his servant. You know what is coming, war. If he wins, I'll be be emotionally dead. if the ministry wins, i'll be sentenced to death for war crimes. Im getting ahead of myself, but i need you to prepare for what's coming. You'll never see me again but it's for the best. I hate myself for not being able to protect you. Forget about me, fall in love, have children, go far away from here. The states maybe, you'd be safe there. You've always loved those bloody american sweets. I love you forever bells. Never think otherwise.

eternally yours, theo.

The lines blurred together, i couldn't breathe. Everything was blurry, but i still got up and ran to his dorm. I opened the door.

He was gone.