Still With You // JJK FF //

❄9. One of those days❄

Present day

"Mommy Bun nini, bub nini" The almost 3-year-old San spoke sleepily. "Mommy cho slweapy" Jiah spoke yawning.

"Aigoo look at you two sleeping away on your chairs. Come Imi will put You to sleep." Irene said.

"Thank you Eonnie I have to finish the budget by today Mrs. Kim needs it tomorrow anyhow," Y/n said with an apologetic face. "This old hag, I am telling you. I feel like running over her with a bulldozer. Why does she need it from us when she is going to get things her way anyway." Irene groaned in frustration.

"Mommy iz duing haldwolk, mommy hwaiting." San came and shook his tiny fist in front of his mother. "Aigoo my baby!! Come here come to Mommy!" Y/n got up and took him in his arms. He snuggled his face in Y/n's neck and started closing his eyes.

Y/n kept humming a sweet melody and that always worked as she saw her daughter was also fast asleep.

She was younger than San by 15 mins and very shy but notorious just like him, like her father.

Y/n took both of them to their room and tucked them onto their bed. "Y/naah you stay with them, I will complete the budgeting," Irene said. "No Eonnie I will do It, it's okay," Y/n said.

"Are you defying your elder Y/nssi?" Irene cutely glared at her. "Thank you Eonnie!!" "Mention not!! Bye, good nini!😊😘 " She chuckled saying that and left the room.

Y/n sat beside her daughter's sleeping figure and stroked her forehead. Everyone said she resembled her, but for her, both of her children resembled her father. The eyes, the wittiness, the nose. San had the perfect Bunny smile, one like his father and Jiah had the gummy smile like her.

Suddenly she was reminded of yesterday and her soul trembled thinking about it.

Y/N POV

Yesterday Jiah saw a guest's child playing with his father, and she was so fascinated by the man caressing his son's face and playing with them. She hurried towards them and tried to play too, but the Boy who was around 4 Years old pushed her away. She slipped and fell. Fortunately it was just a minor scratch but she cried a lot.

It broke my heart into pieces.

They need a father figure in their life, I know, but how do I get them one? Bethari every day keeps getting me marriage proposals. But I don't want to burden anyone. My children and I are enough as a family for me, but sometimes I wonder, am I enough for them?

More of all how can I be with someone when this silly heart still beats for him, hopelessly? I know I come off as stupid, but why lie to yourself and live in delusion. I love him and that is my truth. It is good till I keep this information to myself.

I still wonder almost everyday if he is okay? Well, why won't he be okay. He is probably dating someone maybe.

Ah!! Why do I have to care? Anyways that is better, He should be happy wherever he is.

But the problem is I do. I know I am pathetic for still loving him, but what do I do? I can't stop and it freaking hurts.

It's been 3 years 6 months and 14 days and I still love him the same, maybe even more but now I am a little better I don't have void hopes. I was the one who was at fault anyway. He never said he loved me or I was the one for him. It was me who fell for him and fell for him badly.

The problem was that he never said but I wished back then that he did. I used to feel It sometimes in his action, but maybe I was reading too much into things.