Scars and Snakes (Kyoka Jiro x OC)

23 - Divide

Hey, so, it's been a while, huh? 

I think it's clear to anyone who has read this before I'm posting this that I've given up on posting chapters for this fanfiction.

I don't really have a good reason for this, I'm just really lazy. Though they are few and far between, getting comments about how much they enjoyed reading this had really brightened up my life, and I'm endlessly grateful for that.

I've re-read this work like 20 times the past few years and I gotta say, as a writer, there is so much I feel like I could have done better when writing this. The pacing especially was terrible in the beginning, I really rushed the dialogue.

A normal person would go back and fix it, maybe actually finish this when they aren't burnt out anymore. Sadly, I am not like that, I find it very hard to keep myself motivated on creating stuff, which is a shame, since I really enjoyed making this.

I am sorry to those who wanted to see this finished but can't, I know the feeling all too well of seeing a really good work never see an ending. I don't think this deserves the title of a 'really good fanfiction', but if you did enjoy this that much, I apologize, but I still thank you for reading this.

It's a strange feeling, to know there are hundreds of people out there who spent 3 hours of their day just to consume something you created in your room on your shitty PC. The idea that somewhere out there, people really enjoyed who you are and what you have to offer.

With this story, I tried my absolute hardest to let NO projection leak through the OC and the story, but if there is one thing I projected, it's my desire to find someone I can truly trust and care about, and them do the same for me. 

This story isn't about the adventure of Obanai, nor is it a cheesy romance. 

First and foremost, it is a story about having people around you that want to be with you, and learning to trust and care for those people.

One thing you must realize is that I haven't done this, this story was written by someone who still feels like they are alone. I don't know if this story is an accurate representation of what it's like to form genuinely strong bonds, but if nothing else I want this story to give people like me hope. 

I hope that you all find someone or some people that you feel like that you can enjoy the prescense of, someone you can trust, and they the same to you.

You matter in this world, even if it feels like to everyone else you don't.

Don't give in to despair, never stop changing, never stop growing, be the best person you can be.

I don't have any specific advice to give on how to not be alone anymore, I still am. I'm still waiting dumbly for someone to magically reach their hand out and care for me.

Just... try to be happy, okay? Don't force anything, just, try your best to be the best you can be.

Thank you, genuinely, for reading this.

And in the meantime, here's some unfinished writing of what would have been the next chapter that I wrote like a year ago.

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Now that the exams are over, Kyoka has had some time to herself to think about life. As she thought about how she is attending the most prestigious school in Japan and arguably the world, her thoughts drifted towards a certain snake girl.

Obanai had always been quiet and reserved about how she truly felt, and often gave off the impression that she didn't care about anyone yet-

"Do you think I'm pretty...?" Kyoka asked hesitantly.