True To The Game

Pain

Tupac died and it hit me harder than ever. Everyone that knows me knows that he is my favorite rapper. I was devastated. Niggas that knew Marquis out LA told him a nigga named Baby Lane killed him. His uncle was supposedly the driver of the white cadillac. I felt as if Tupac was my brother or something that passed. I was driving to the store with Marquis when a black car pulled behind us. It flashed its lights twice than a gray car pulled up next to us. A man dressed in red with a red bandana got out of the car and pulled at the driver seat of our car.

"Marquis! Drive off don't get out!" I screamed. Marquis reached down and grabbed his gun , getting out of the car slowly.

"Wassup man?"

"You disrespected my sister?"

"Man who the fuck are you talking about who the fuck is your sister?"Yelled Marquis.

"Baby...get back in the car."

I jumped out of the car and Marquis and the guy began to fight. The gun fell out of Marquis' hand and before i could pick it up three shots rang out. The dude shot Marquis and hopped back into his car.

"Somebody help me..No no baby.."I cried sitting down and holding Marquis in my arms. He was shot in his stomach twice and in his head. People stopped their cars and call the cops. Several minutes later the ambulance came and the paramedics placed Marquis on a stretcher. I hopped in the car and followed them to the hospital. I cried the whole time.

"God please save him..Please save him."I cried. When i got to the hospital they already had Marquis in the Icu.

"Ma'am just be calm, sit here and fill out these forms. We need you to get ahold of his parents."The nurse said. I filled out the paperwork than called Marquis' mother and father. 40 minutes later his parents showed up. His mother was hysterical. The doctor came out a couple minutes later.

"We had to place him in a medically induced coma. He has swelling on his brain and we need to hope he doesn't have brain damage. Right now is the time to pray and pray hard."The doctor said. I held Marquis' mother and cried . I prayed god for forgiveness. I've been going on dates with men while Marquis has been recording songs with Shenise . I never had sex with them but I wanted him to feel bad like I had felt . Now I wish I could take it back. I prayed that god would save him . I wasn't ready to bury the one I loved. I wasn't ready for Marquis to leave me indefinitely.

I spent days and nights at the hospital watching over him. He started to get better but still wasn't awake. The doctor said he wasn't brain damaged but had a long road of recovery ahead of him. I couldn't believe it . I couldn't believe god was answering my prayers. Ellie came to the hospital and brought flowers. I ate , slept and showered at the hospital.

"You know everyone is saying Shenise had him shot...that bul was his brother...Hakeem and his niggas murked him tho."Ellie said looking through a magazine.

"Where is Shenise at?"

"Still on the run. She knows niggas is looking for her."

"She better hope i don't find her first."

Marquis' legs began to shake and his eyes opened. I hopped over to his bed and held his hand. He looked me dead in the eye and a tear dropped from his eyes. He tried to move his mouth but i stopped him.

"Relax."I said kissing him. The nurse walked in and smiled.

"Marquis! You're awake...don't say anything just yet i have to run some vitals."She said while checking his blood pressure. When she was done she started to walk out the door but Marquis grabbed her arm.

"If yall don't stop giving me this mashed food....I'm hungry.:"he said clearing his throat.

Me and Ellie laughed.

"Good to see that you are up now bro."Ellie laughed

"How long have i've been down?"

"Three weeks...."

"I gotta get out of here...damn."Marquis groaned he felt pain in his back.

"You sir aint going anywhere at least for a couple day."The doctor said while checking his temperature.

"I love you."I said kissing him. Marquis struggled to move his arms because he was stiff. He wrapped his arms around me and tears fell from his eyes.

"I got something to tell you..."Marquis said

"What is it ?"

Before he could answer his mother and father walked in rejoicing. His mother was crying and hugging him and Donna his manager walked in soon after. She carried food and a couple pairs of clothes for Marquis.

"We gonna need you back out here Marquis. Rest up and get better."Donna smiled hugging him

"Thank you Donna."

Miguel and his girlfriend Kiana walked in. Miguel and Marquis exchanged hugs .

"You pulled through nigga."Miguel smiled.

"Yup...but you know what i'm on as soon as i get out of here."

"Niggas handeled that....Shenise on the run."

"Shenise?"

"Yeah nigga she set you up...why would she do that?"

Marquis shook his head then looked at me.

"I know why."He said softly.

"Because she still wants him."I replied

"Yeah..."Marquis responded

"We will let you and Tia have yall time. I love you son."Marquis mother said kissing him.

"Love you to ma."

Everyone left the room and it was just me and Marquis.

"So what did you need to tell me?"I asked anxiously.

"Promise me ...you won't get upset with me."

I sat donw and braced myself i knew it had to be serious.

"I promise."

"Shenise was pregnant i made her get an abortion."

As much as i wanted to cry, I couldn't. I made him promise to use a condom and he didn't that was my fault for trusting him that hard.

"You promised me..."

"Tia... I know.. I am asking you to forgive me. I should've never had you in this position."

"I can frogive you...it's gonna take time."

After leaving the hospital i drove down to Brooklyn. Shenise's brothers lived in Brooklyn and i needed to find her. I held Marquis's gun on my lap. When i pulled up to shenise's brothers home. A crowd of people were outside drinking,eating and having a good time. Shenise was seated in a chair holding her nephew and smiling. I pulled off. I now knew where she stayed and planned to move on her.. Soon... I lit a cigarette and drove back to Delaware. When i was getting close to the house i pulled over because i felt sick to my stomach. I began throwing up on the side of the road. Then it hit me... My period was late.