True To The Game

Maybe Baby and Dollar Bills

A nigga is stressed out. Shenise claims she's pregnant . I've been using condoms with Shenise so i don't know how this even came about. I paced back and forth around the studio trying to figure out what i was going to do. We are on our last song and this news crushed me i can't even lie. Shenise sat in a chair looking like a sad puppy.

"So what are we going to do?"

"I need you to get an abortion."I said, continuing to pace.

"Why? Why can't i have this baby?"

"Because Shenise...I don't want to be with you anymore. I want to be with Tia."

Shenise began to cry and shake her leg. She knows that women crying is my weakness and i almost pulled her into my arms but i stopped myself. I had to stand on it.

"We can't have this baby ...i'm sorry Shenise."

"Are you going to come to the clinic with me?"

"You know i will."I said holding her hand

Shenise got into the booth and began singing her part of our last song together. This time it was even more intense. Not only was Shenise pregnant, this was the end of us completely. I felt like Shenise wasn't going to go forward with the abortion because she wanted to hold onto me. After we finished recording we sat in the studio for a little while.

"My appointment is tomorrow at 10."She said softly

"I will take you to it and we will go out to eat afterwards."

"Thank you Marquis."She said wiping tears from her eyes. I almost felt bad but it had to be done. I couldn't keep messing with her.

The next day i picked Shenise up and we went to the clinic. It was quiet the whole ride and i waited in the waiting room while she got it done. When she came out her eyes were puffy from crying and she handed me paperwork. The proof that she had the abortion done.

"You still wanna get something to eat ?"i asked her

Shenise shook her head and took a checkbook out from her purse. She wrote me a check for 3 million dollars. She handed it to me and asked me to let her out by a bodega.

"Are you sure you don't need a ride home?"

"My mama lives around the corner from this store. I can walk home. Goodbye Quis."She said

"Goodbye Shenise."I said driving off. I was glad that the abortion took place without a fight. I didn't want Tia finding out about anything.When i walked in Tia was sitting at the table eating and my plate sat beside her.

I gave her a kiss and sat down.

"Hey baby how was your day?" she asked me.

"Pretty good ... I finished the last song with Shenise."

"Yes! Finally I am glad baby!"She smiled kissing me.

"Yup...what do you have planned for this weekend?"

"Not a damn thing are we sliding to the club?"

"Fasure."

"Imma go get in the shower and we can sit down and watch a movie."I said getting up from the chair. I got in the shower and tried to scrub the pain i felt inside out. I knew the things i've been doing to Tia was wrong but i had reasons for it. I wanted her to know that . I never meant to hurt her but if i had to fuck Shenise for that extra 3 mill it needed to be done. I only hope god forgives me for this abortion. Tia had to be my first everything. I went to the bedroom and began counting the money. Next to the bed lay a piece of paper with a number on it . I was curious but shrugged it off and got into bed next to Tia.

"Now we can work on our legacy. I'm ready for a kid or three watchu think?"I joked

"Let me finish college first....Ain't ready to pop no babies out now."She smiled. I kissed her and rubbed her back as we watched a movie. My pager started to go off. I had to make a run.

I got out of the bed and put my sweats on before grabbing a gym bag out of my closet.

"Where are you going?"

"I gotta make a drop. Don't fall asleep i have two to do then i'm in for the night."

Tia gave me a kiss then i was on my way down to Newark. I began buying coke from this dealer out in Brooklyn named Onyx. She had connects all over and put me on to the purest coke to ever hit the block from the Dominican Republic. I only served to people i knew. They knew better not to cross me and i supplied them with the best of the best. After dropping off a few bags i counted my money and headed back home. Shenise was too calm for me earlier today and i felt weird about it at first but shook it off. That was done and over with now i'm onto bigger shit with the one i love. I couldn't sleep ..i woke up at 3 drenched in sweat and hyperveniliating. I kept seeing a picture of a dead child. That was my conscious fucking with me because i am holding a secret from Tia. I looked at Tia who was sound asleep and admired her beauty. I needed to get a grip.. I can't lose her. I won't lose her.