Then to escape the situation, I locked myself in my room and slammed the door. I was overwhelmed by sadness and at the same time in a dark anger! I wanted to scream so much I was angry and sad. Memories were coming back, and for the first time in at least some time, I felt ashamed about the reality, confusion and I felt a burst of tears coming.
Then without thinking, I threw all on the floor if there was on one of my furniture. Then screamed with anger. I'm kicking something that we're flying a little further down my bedroom floor. A few frames, in which there were photos was now broken on the ground, the pieces all scattered. I screamed realizing what I've done. Then I collapsed into tears sitting on the floor. Back against my bed. Tears flowed down my cheeks like never before.
