- jealousy - | TOKIO HOTEL |

- recovering -

" Bill , are you okay? " 

He just stares at me. " Say something ! " I yell .

" Come in. " He said , his voice was raspy and dull . I knew Tom did something to him.

" Why did you guys fake it all? " I ask him , His eyes shoot to the floor and he opens his mouth but nothing came out. 

" I- " I stop him. " I mean if you two were that desperate to get the truth out of me you just needed to ask me ? "

" The truth? " He questions me. 

" Yes bill , Im not in love with you Bill. I dont know how Tom had an idea of that. " He looks at me with tears forming in his eyes. " I know . Its not Toms fault , its mine. " 

" What? " I asked him , How was it his fault? 

" I forced tom to play along with it and it just went too far , he was too scared to tell you. " 

I wanted to scream at his face and tell him how selfish he was , but i knew i should just be happy this was all a trick. " You gonna come back home? " I ask him. 

" Yeah. I feel so weird here. " He replies back. 

I laugh , " You had to get the worst apartment didnt you? " 

He laughs then gets up to pack all of his stuff. 

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- BILLS POV -

I was so ashamed of myself . I miss my brother , i miss my friends and i miss myself. I was so selfish trying to get Y/N to love me , I get why Tom does i mean look at her. Her eyes , her hair . I especially love her hair. Its so soft and comforting. I grab my duffel bag and grab all my clothes , then head to the bathroom to grab my toothbrush. " Im ready . " I mumble from the bathroom. 

" Alright lets go ! " I hear her say . Her voice has me in a choke hold. Its so soothing , her words are said so perfectly and she knows exactly what to say at the right times. Unlike me , im a selfish excuse of a friend , brother or even a lover. No wonder i've never had anyone love me.

They used to bully me call me " hässliches Schwein " In school. Even my brother was ashamed of me sometimes. They all thought i was a girl for crying out loud ! The boys sent me love letters without knowing i was a boy. Until the pool. I dont talk about the pool ever since i told Tom. Thats when he started to stick up for me. I always wonder , What would've happened if i just went with tom to run those errands? 

- Y/NS POV -

We walk outside of the apartments back into the elevator and we go down into the parking lot.  

" Toms car huh? " He says walking up to the car. " Yeah. I mean i dont have one yet. " We hop in the car and Bill puts his duffel in the back seat. I turn back on the GPS and pull out of the parking lot. " Hey you hungry bill? " I ask with my eyes glued to the road. I never got my lisence so i guess i was a bit nervous. " Yeah i havent eaten today. " I pull up to Mcdonalds for him. " Usual? " I said lining up behind the car infront of us. Bills laughs , " Yep ! " Some things never change. 

" Hey can i get one Big mac , 6 nuggets and a Vanilla shake? " Bill always got that. Ever since i met him.  " Tap here please ! " Said the kind cashier handing me the debit machine. I scan my card and pull up to the next window and pass the food over to Bill. We continue to drive back to the house. I felt comfort when i was with bill. My bestfriend , My bill. 

We get back to the house and bill hesitant to get out. I start to realise i was in his position a few days ago. " Its okay Bill. He wont do anything hes harmless ! " I say with a giggle trying to brek the awkwardness.  

I dont think i sounded funny or reasuring because i got nothing out of him. He slowly raised out of his seat and closed the car door. I locked it and we walked inside. 

" We are here !! " I yell out to all of the boys. 

Tom comes sprinting down , without saying a word he locks bill in a tight hug.

" I love you , brother. "