- jealousy - | TOKIO HOTEL |

- love triangle -

( sorry for this taking so long i was on vacation )

Tom and Bill hug for as it seems hours at my eyes. I walk up to Toms room to escape from the boredom. I look around , i don't come into Toms room too often. Its usually Bills room we hang out in. I glance over to a photo wall he has and examine them all. One with Tom and Bill when they w'ere younger , it looked like they're first day of kindergarten. A picture immediately catches my eye. Stacy? It didnt bother me , i was just sat there in confusion. I really am starting to think Toms a liar. I mean , Cheating on me , Faking his brothers death? I dont trust him anymore. 

" Put that down. " I lashed my head around to see Tom. " I uh- " He snaps at me " Y/N What the fuck? , why cant you just trust me? You have to snoop around my shit?! " I look into his angered eyes with fear. I must admit Tom really does scare me. " Well i wouldn't have to is you weren't a cheating piece of shit! " I barge past him leaving the photo onto the ground. I stop past Bills room and slowly creak open his door. " Hey Bill can we talk? " He lifts his head up from his phone  and places it down. " Sure ! " I walk in and jump up onto his bed. " Tom keeps cheating on me and i have no idea what to do. " I saw his eyes light as i said it , I mean they are identical twins right? Plus Bill might be the more attractive one? " He doesnt deserve you. " Bill whispers to me pulling the hair from my face. I knew what he was trying to do and i loved it. " I know Bill , i know who deserves me. " He looks up into my eyes and i could feel his heart pacing. We fell into a kiss that felt like forever , like the world was lifted from our feet. I knew what i was doing was wrong , but Tom doesnt deserve me. He can go fuck with Stacy for all i care. 

" Cmon , We dont want Tom coming in here hey? " I laugh and we make our way downstairs. Tom must still be in his room. Me and Bill go and sit down on the couch. " Wanna watch something? " He asked as he flicked through a few movies. " I like that one. " I said as he clicked on The Ring. " Oh so you like horror? " He said shuffling closer to me. " Of course i do.. "  

" Why are you two so close. " I hear from behind me. I turn around " Can i not sit next to someone? " I replied as he went to go sit next to me. 

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We were about half way through the movie , Tom was asleep next to me . Bill looks at me , " You wanna go to my room? " He whispers. I knew his intentions , i liked them. " Definetly . " He grabs my hand a leads me up to his room. His room had such a comforting smell. Mysterious. I could never tell what the smell was , i just loved it. We sat down on his bed. " Your perfect " He said dragging his fingers through my hair , I never felt this love with Tom. It was always such a toxic relationship. But i dont have the heart to tell him ive fallen for his brother. " I want you Bill. " I said as he pulled me foward. He tasted so bittersweet. Like a reward i know isnt for me. But god is it addicting .

( smut warning )

" Can i? " Bill asked. I knew what he meant. I wanted it. " Yes , Yes. " He started to take of my shirt. The though of Tom barging in was filling my head . But i still let him. He took off my bra and i took of my bottom half while he started undressing. He was laying on top of me. His beautiful eyes , his lips. I love him. I just wish i knew sooner. As our lips pressed i felt comfort. Peace. He ran his hands down my body and i ran mine down his hair. He didnt have his hairspray in. It felt so soft and beautiful. I was so addicted to thus boys touch and it hasnt even been a day since we started . " Ready? Tell me if it hurts. " He said pushing into my entrance. I winced in pain as he started thrusting slowly. Tears welled up in my eyes as i started to come to realisation . Im now the cheater. I try to let it cross my mind , its hurting me deep inside. " Hey , you okay? " Bill said trying to catch his breath as he kept going. I nodded and wrapped my hands around his neck. Tom deserved this , but i still have mixed emotions. 

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" Holy shit. " I said as he collapsed down next to me. " Amazing right? " I turned my head to look at him. " Bill , what if he finds out? " I ask . He sits there for a few seconds hesitant to answer.        " I promise he wont. " I hope he can keep his word. " We should go downstairs , he might be awake. " I got up and changed back into my clothes and wiped the sweat beads off my forehead before walking downstairs . " y/n? " Tom says from the couch. He hasnt moved. " Youre awake? " " Hard to sleep with all the moaning upstairs. " I froze. I knew this would turn into some shit show. " Tom im sorry . " He looked at me with tears welling up in his eyes. " Im leaving. " I picked up my car keys and got into my car. Had no idea where i would go. I had no friends. I just drove. As far as i possibly could , i was done playing games like some love triangle. I just wanted to live a live without fighting with them , but i know i couldnt.