After the Rain

Crossroad

I've been wronged

Even worse, I wrongly feel wronged

Even worse than that, I wrongly feel that I shouldn't feel wronged

As if I don't have enough internal conflicts

This terrible feeling within has been prolonged

This shame and guilt lingered where they had not belonged

They went as far as to break me and beyond

And although I'm so willful and strong,

I've been holding myself together for so long,

So I'll cry a river of tears, but not enough to drown

I'll build a boat with the guard I had let down

I'll row down this new path taking the long way round

Not off to the sunset with birds chirping overhead a mound

But to a place with no flowers lying in wait, only harder ground

In search of no fantasy, but something earthbound

In hope clarity and truth may be unraveled and found

Armed with them I may fight those who wronged me

And protect myself from the lies they've deemed reality

Because this mind will not be toyed with handily

It is barricaded with resilience protecting my morality

my integrity, my honesty, my humanity and most importantly, my liberty

So, relish in your fool's gold, your professed victory is only a fallacy

And your false sense of fairness will only be met with apathy

In the end, both our journeys have finalities

And down our paths we go

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