Summer I turned pretty

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U have depression
The Conklins and fishers told you to go to therapy
Ur alone

Y/n pov
I was running I don't know where to but I was gone the faint screams of belly and Jeremiah shouting me

How do you take it when your close friends tell you to go the therapy

Not lightly I guess

1 missed call from Conrad

12 new messages from Laurel

8 missed called from Susannah

4 new messages from belly

All I wanted was to be alone I'm not a addict or anything I just struggle sometimes

Maybe if I wasn't here they- no stop it

When I knew I was far away I just released a breathe

2 new voicemails from Conrad

I listened to them

"Y/n it's con I know your hurting but please come back to the house we are sorry please"

"Y/n I swear to fucking god answer your god damn phone or I'll come find you myself"

He screamed

Was I scared? Did I need them no they was gonna leave either way didn't matter what I did

So I kept running it was getting pretty dark out the sun had set there was barely any cars only the odd police cars that patrolled the streets

Maybe I need help

NO IF THEY WAS MY FRIENDS THEY WOULDNT SAY THAT

Or they are just scared for me

No no one cares everyone leaves

FUCK

I was gormlessly walking down the street when a black and sliver Range Rover pulled up next to me

"Get in the car y/n"

"Go away Conrad"

"Fine we will do it the hard way". He opened the back seat and grabbed chucking me In the back

Before I could get out he locked the doors

Fuck

"Y/n"

"What"

"Stop"

"No your basically kidnapping me"

"U ran out on us we are trying to help"

"I don't want your help"

"Sure u don't"

"I don't"

On the way back it was silent no one spoke to me when we got back so I went upstairs and just gave up

I gave up everything that night
Cousins
Belly
Conrad
Jeremiah
Steven
Laurel
Susannah
I gave up everything I don't want help I really wish I did it tho
(Tw suicide)
I gave up okay you win after knowing everyone was asleep I wrote notes for everyone

Do it the pain will go away

I grabbed the blade

Kill yourslef do it

And cut

Harder

And cut

Harder

Till the last one made me feel dizzy and

THUD

All I could see was darkness finally I was leaving this place and I can be at peace here in cousins like heaven on earth now just heaven for me