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"You said we need to talk right? Come to my studio tonight."
Yoongi was clearly avoiding Hoseok.
At first Hoseok thought he was just being delusional but observering his Hyung for few days, he was very well aware how his Hyung always maintained a distance from him. Which was pissing him off.
What did he do wrong for that Yoongi was avoiding him?
There were loads of questions eating him up and one thing that did not leave him peace was the thought of him hurting Yoongi in some or the other way while they were doing things? He really didn't want to be that reason and if it is, he would like to beg for forgiveness from Yoongi.
It's been a month. And Yoongi is not giving him a single chance to talk the things out with him.
Is Yoongi regretting?
Wasn't Hoseok a good dom?
The answer to all the questions was going to end up today. It doesn't matter if Yoongi wants to talk or not. Hoseok wants to make everything clear because now it has been affecting their performance. The connection between Hoseok and Yoongi is not at all helping the group to get their dance step in sync and performing better for their fans.
And the sudden surprise message from Yoongi made it little easier for Hoseok.
He took a deep breath. Hoseok was in front of Yoongi's studio. He knocked on the door and waited for Yoongi to open it. The password of Yoongi's studio wasn't well known by anyone except Jungkook. Hoseok had prepared everything in his mind. From where to start till the end, hell he had kind of practiced it, still when the door opened and Yoongi came into sight, Hoseok’s mind went blank. A sudden nervousness started to rise in his chest not able to find any words to start.
"Uh.. hey." Yoongi looked down, stepping aside and letting Hoseok in his studio before he closed the door. "What did you want to talk about?" Hoseok sat on the couch and looked at Yoongi with raised eyebrows. How does Yoongi did not know? He definitely does, right?
"Hyung, come. Sit." He patted on couch beside him.
Yoongi nodded his head and sat down just few distance away. "So.." He trailed of, his hand rubbing his nape. This was awkward for him but not for Hoseok."Why are you avoiding me?"
"I'm not." Yoongi looked away making Hoseok sigh.
He took Yoongi's hand into his making Yoongi look at their hands and shifted closer to the elder male. "Hyung, we both know that's not true. Tell me what's wrong so I can make it better." His thumb crassed the back of Yoongi's hand. Hoseok noticed how he held back a breath just on mere touch. "Wasn't I a good dom?" He asked the question he wanted for so long. Finally getting it off his chest, he looked at Yoongi who immediately shook his head. "No, that's–" Hoseok interrupted Yoongi's protest. "Hear me out first." Yoongi nodded biting his bottom lip which Hoseok found cute for a moment before he started again. "Did I hurt you in any kind of way? Did I went over board? Are you regretting it? We can go back and pretend like nothing happened if you are uncomfortable. I want you to tell me what's exact reason we are having troubles with so that we can slove it together and perform better in our daily lives." Yoongi nodded once again and Hoseok waited for Yoongi to answer. Honestly, Hoseok wanted all the the answers in negative because if any one these are reasons then Hoseok’s surely be in heavy guilt for making the situation tough for his Hyung.
"I.. I just– you..." Yoongi takes his hand back to himself. The touch was clearly distracting him. "You weren't a bad Dom Hoba, nor you hurted me. I don't regret anything that had happened. And.. and I don't want to pretend like nothing happened." The last sentence was almost like a whisper but Hoseok got it. "Then what's wrong?" He shifted more closer to Yoongi.
Yoongi looked at Hoseok, he clearly looked tired. There were dark circles starting to from under Yoongi's eyes and his shoulders were slumped down. Hoseok also noticed the two cups of coffee on the table beside his computer getting a hint of Yoongi's condition at the moment. "What's wrong?" He tugged Yoongi's hair behind his ear, getting Yoongi’s cheeks warming up at sweet gesture.
"Hobi.." Yoongi whispered, his eyes held the gaze for few seconds with Hoseok. He sounded desperate which had Hoseok’s breath to hitch. "Hm? What is it?" Hoseok encouraged.
"As I told you I don't want to pretend that nothing happened.. what about you?" Yoongi looked on to his lap.
"Me neither, hyung."
Yoongi let out a breath. "Well.. I-I had this dom.." He trailed of and Hoseok’s eyes narrowed on the mention of other person but he didn't interrupt, only nodding his head for elder to speak further. "We had a contract of doing things together. Everything was good and I went to him whenever I need to get things off my mind. We were doing these things almost like six months but few days earlier. I ended my contract with him because.. he.. uh.." Yoongi debated with his words. "He kind of took advantage of my subspace." He glanced at Hoseok for the response and the male was ready to ask questions. "You go into subspace?" It wasn’t surprising on how Yoongi reacted earlier when they were being intimate. Still. "And what did he do with you?" It angered Hoseok only by thinking of things people doing to hurt Yoongi.
"I sometimes go non-vocal when I'm deep into my subspace and he liked it. We both were okay with it until one day he asked if I could wear a small skirt while doing things and go deep down my head space when I was already halfway down in my subspace. Well, I didn't have problems with that. But when he showed me the outfit he brought which he mentioned as 'just skirt and shirt' was basically a school dress." Hoseok’s eyes widened in shock. "I rejected it but he started forcing it on me saying things to convince me to wear it and as I was already down. It was really hard for me to reject what my dom was saying, so I called Joonie to take me out of there and till he reached my dom already put on that clothes on me. Nothing much happened but I'm just in little uneasy due to it."
"Nothing much?" Hoseok’s jaw clenched with anger. He wished he could throw punches on that man for putting Yoongi into that position of his pedophilic thoughts. "You should have reported it Hyung, did you?" Yoongi shook his head which made Hoseok run his finger through his hair in frustration. "Joonie took care of it. He did reported him they fined him for that. I don't know the details. I just don't want to know.." He quickly said not wanting seem weak.
Hoseok sighs. "How are you feeling now? Does the thoughts of him still troubles you? Can I help in any kind of way Hyung?"
Yoongi fiddles with his fingers, nodding his head.
"Whatever you want Hyung. I'll be always there if you need anything. Tell me how can I help you?"
"Hobi, we have already crossed the weird line, right?" Yoongi asked. The hesitation in his voice was higher. "Yes." Hoseok answered, wanting the things to lead in the direction he is imagining to go.
"So it wouldn't be weird, if I say something weird because we have already crossed the weird line." Yoongi's glanced at Hosoek. He knew he was beating around the bush but his heart which was too nervous and flustered, wouldn't let him say the words to get the thing he wants.
"I don’t think anything would be weird. Tell me how can I help you?" Hoseok looked genuinely concerned and ready for help which made Yoongi feel bad and selfish on what he's gonna ask him.
"You are a good dom, you take things seriously and you know where's the limitations—" Yoongi started rambling, making him feel stupid for opening his mouth but he didn't knew how to say it.
"Hyung. Stop playing with words and tell me what do you need?"
"Will you be my dom, Hoseok?"
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