I'm Not A Boy || YoonMin

『 4 』

Jin's P.o.v

"Who is moda?" asked Jimin, of course, to which I also immediately replied, "I call my >mama< that because >she< is genderqueer. >She< feels female and male together. "

He nodded and Joon continued: "And that's why there are other pronouns like she/her and he/him. "
"Like me, for example.  My pronouns are they/them.  Instead of >His name is Hoseok< it is then >Their name is Hoseok<. " Hobi tried to explain.  Kookie added, "For example, I would like the pronouns he and him, since I'm a boy.  Do you understand?"

Apparently Jimin first sorted out the new information before answering: "Mhh... a little bit but not quite yet.  How did you actually come up with moda, Jin?"  I smiled and told him the little story: "When I was little, my mom had already tried to explain to me that she is not quite mom and not quite dad but a mixture.  As smart as I have been since I was little, I mixed the two words to moda and it became a habit to call them that. "

Jimin just nodded and immediately asked the next question: "And Hobi is also genderfluid when he uses the same pronouns as moda, right?"
Hobi shook their head with a smile and said, "Really well combined but while Jiwon feels like both, I feel like neither. " Jimin made an understanding sound.

Now Kookie spoke up: "It takes a bit of practice with the pronouns, but you can do it relatively quickly.  You just have to replace he/she with they, him/her with them and his/hers with their. "Oh, it's actually not that complicated. " Jimin agreed.

"What we can explain to you now is the outing or coming out," Tae suggested the next topic of conversation.  We all liked the suggestion and so Joon began to explain: "The outing or coming out describes the moment when I tell my parents, you or others that I am bi. "
"Ahh...so Kookie and Tae came out to me this morning. " Jimin said his knowledge aloud.  Again, we all agreed.

"And how did your parents react during the outing?"Jimin asked us a personal question, which was not meant like that.

I started: "So since moda is part of the community and my dad was with them, he knew about it too, so coming out was easy for me.  As expected, both reacted positively. "

Hobi continued, "Unfortunately, not all parents react positively.  I came out to them almost a month ago, which ended in a fight, and I've been living with Jin ever since. " Jimin's smile he was wearing disappeared and became a stunned look.

"My parents reacted neutrally, like most people do when you tell them you're bi.  Because you're still half straight, thinking like that is bullshit. " Joon shared his experiences.

Next it's Tae's turn: "Uhm... so I haven't told my parents yet.  But I will soon. " "You can do the Tae!" I encouraged him.

"I've half outed myself because I only told my parents that I don't want a relationship and they just said I'm still young and can take my time with things like that. " said Kookie how things were going with him.

"We should break up slowly, as it is already evening. " Hobi said, laughing lightly.  We all looked at the clock and realized that it was already almost 6 o'clock.

We drank our last drink and paid before we said goodbye to start our way home.

Hoseok's P.o.v

This time I unlocked the door instead of ringing the bell, as Jin had given me his key, which I will give back to him at school tomorrow.  I walked into the apartment, closed the door behind me before I took off my shoes and took off my jacket.

It was exceptionally quiet.  I steered into the living room and fell into a stare of the guests, as these guests were my parents.

"Hello, Hoseok. " my parents said to me almost at the same time.  I stood there as if rooted, completely overwhelmed and no idea what to say or do.

"Hobi, please talk to your parents. " Jiwon said, and I nodded and sat down with my parents before they left the room.

"Hoseok, we are and I am particularly sorry for the way we, especially me, reacted when you entrusted us with something very personal. " said my mom close to tears.  Dad continued, "Jiwon, enlightened us and taught us about pronouns.  We get it now and we're trying to get it right with you. " Then mom asked, "So can you please come home with us? "

I let the words work on me before the first tears ran down my cheeks, I leaned forward in an embrace with my parents and said, "I'm sorry I ran away, didn't tell you and ignored you.  A few years ago, I probably would have reacted the same way, because I didn't know it.  You don't have to be sorry it was just unknown to you and that's what everyone is afraid of.  Thank you for your support and understanding. "

We remained in the embrace for quite a while, with dad stroking my back and mom giving gentle kisses on my hairline.  But when we broke up, I got the courage to say something to my parents: "Dad, mom, surely you remember Taehyung. "

"Yes, of course, you've known each other since kindergarten. " mom answered for both of them, whereupon dad asked, "What's wrong with him?"  I once took a deep breath before a smile formed on my face and I told them, "We've been together since Saturday as a couple. "

I saw my parents start smiling even wider, hugging me tightly and shouting, "Congratulations!"  mom still hung up: "Bring him to dinner, after all we have to welcome him into the family. " Then we all started laughing.

When we calmed down, I slowly got up and went to the kitchen where Jiwon was.  They gave me a smile which I returned and then pulled them into a firm embrace before I whispered, "Thank you. " Jiwon said, "I liked it, but you better pack your things. "

I nodded whereupon I went to Jin's room and gathered my seven things.