White Noise

Hurt

*listen to music through out chapter. Sorry for the quality*

*The girl grabs mine and Tyler's hand. She pulls us into a dark room.*

I jolt awake and look around. I'm in my room. We're in our new house. I sit up and pull my knees to my chest. I start crying.

I think I lost them. Tyler and Lilah, are gone. I breakdown, I let it out. The tears slide down my cheek. I furiously wipe them away. I grab my pillow and start screaming.

"No! Please! Come back!" I Scream into my pillow.

I know how to solve this. I go into my bathroom and find my long lost friend, my razor.

I smile and hold it up to the light and watch it shine. I've missed it. My skin has begged for that feeling again. I stand in front of the mirror. I admire my untouched skin. How only pink and red scars remained.

I flip my razor in between my fingers and place the tip on my thigh. I push down and smile. I drag it across my thigh. The blood rushes up to the injury and pours down my thigh. I get going, moving up and down my thigh.

I lift up my shirt and pull my shorts down a bit. I look at the scars on my hips, stomach and ribs. I place the razor on my hip and draw my lines again. I carve "hurt" into my stomach. I wipe away the blood so the words show. I giggle evilly.

I missed and craved for this feeling for so long. My skin screamed for it.

I start to cut my stomach and ribs.

"Skylar! What are you doing?!" I hear a male voice scream at me. I start to get dizzy so I turn on the faucet to the bath tub and fill it up. The water is steaming hot when I put my foot in.

I take my shorts off, leaving me in only my bra and panties. I step in and lay in the tub. The cuts sting and I cringe. I saw my sleeping pills on the edge of the tub. I smile, take the cap off and pour them into my hand. I play with them, I chase them around with the tip of my finger. I giggle and put them back in the bottle.

I continue to cut, on my wrist and up my arms. The water wasn't clear anymore. My blood took the color. I wasn't satisfied with my other cuts, so I went over them, again and again. I go deeper, longer and farther.

I start to cry and I cover my face.

"Skylar! Answer me!" The voice calls again. I know this is my imagination. Everyone is part of that.

I grab the bottle of pills and study it. I cry harder as I open it. I get more dizzy as the clock ticks away.

"Fuck it." I sigh as I open the bottle and throw all the pills into my mouth. I swallow all of them and and sigh.

"Skylar, stop! Throw them up!" The voice says.

"Screw you!" I say and close my eyes.

I just have to wait for this. I need to leave. My life isn't worth it. It never has been.

I take one last look at the razor and see, it was Lilah's. I get dizzier and close my eyes. I start to fall asleep as the male pulls me out of the water and carries me away.