iHave A Mother (iCarly FanFic)

Chapter 1

"Good, you're still here." I say with a nasal tone as I notice my mom sitting on a seat. "Spencer, I won't leave now, I wanna get to know you and Carly" mom says "really? You won't leave? Carly won't fall for that." I tell her with a strict undertone, I walk past her again and as I do so Harper walks up to me. "She's really your mom?" Harper asks. "Yeah." I answer fast, "she is"

I'm almost at the front of the room when I turn around "Mom, you can't just walk in.. Carly has a whole life without you." I say. "I get that Spency, but I'm her mom, I have rights to get to know her." She says with a soft voice, I lower my voice after I heard her say my nickname from when I was young. "Her mom would have been there when she achieved milestones." I tell her. Mom looks deep into my eyes "I know I did it wrong, but i'm here now and there's enough that she can still accomplish. I can't make up for the past but I wanna be here in the present."

As my mother says it she stands up. I watch her as she walks up to me, she does seem genuine. "And Spencer, I wanna be here for you just as much. Remember when you were young and we used to make projects together" she says as she gets closer to me. "I know you are an artist Spencer, and I've always believed you would become an artist." She reaches out to my hand. "Just let me show you that I can be present, for both of you, if you are willing too." She takes my hand in hers and rubs it, just like she used too. I look at it before realising this wasn't the plan. I pull my hand away quickly and then look at her familiar face, I see how she looks up from her hand and see how she holds back tears. I stare at her watery eyes, it's as if I look at Carly's eyes and now it hits me. Mom came back

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The warm water made me relax and I feel way better. I put on a cozy outfit and sat down at the couch. "Here you go" Freddie says as he puts down my hot chocolate. "Thank you" I say as I try to smile. He sits down next to me, "no problem" Freddie says before kissing my cheek. I keep looking at the tv screen, a long list of movies and series are shown but i can't pick one. Freddie must realise I'm not doing anything with the remote, but he doesn't say anything, not yet, and I'm fine with that.

"You never talked about your mom" Freddie says. I widen my eyes, "right." I say, I try to not turn my head to him. "Only once.. you told me you didn't remember her. Why did you never say she was still alive?" I know he is trying to understand things and being sweet but it irritates me. I shrug my shoulders "because." I say. "This movie?" I ask as I nod to the screen. "It's about a girl who moves to Paris." I tell Freddie. "Carly, your avoiding conversations." He tells me. I turn my head to him, "you are correct, now lets watch the movie." I say fast as I press play on the movie that I randomly chose.

Freddie takes the remote from me and presses pause. "I really think we should talk about today first." He says. "No." I say harsh. "Carly.. i think it's good to talk about this before your mom shows up again." Freddie says. "I don't want to! Can we watch the movie now?" I tell him clearly as I pull the remote out of is hands. "No. I don't wanna watch a made up story. I want to understand you." He says. I put on the movie again and shake my head "i don't even fully understand, how will you!?" "You don'-" "Freddie I already said don't want to talk!" I shout at him. "Fine. But then I'm going to my home, i can't watch a movie right now" Freddie says grumpy as he walks to the door.

"Don't leave me.." Tears come up in my eyes as I watch Freddie slam the door while he walks away. I'm just not ready to talk about it yet, even with Spencer that took a long time.

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"She doesn't wanna talk." I say frustrated as I walk into Spencer's apartment. I heard him walking in ten minutes ago, I just had to calm down before going to his place.