2015

Truth

It hurts so much
To finally know the truth
The truth that took two years to be revealed
Two years I had to be fooled
Two years I had to live a lie
To accept a lie
Two years I had missed him
When two years he kept the truth

It hurts so much
It shouldn't but it does
No matter how hard I tried to block him
He still holds my fragile heart
He still holds unto my emotions
Two years I thought I have moved on
Yet I still cry over him
I still hurt over him
I still feel for him
Two years & still I am wrapped under his charm

It hurts knowing that he cheated
Two years to finally finding out
It hurts because I thought I meant so much
Yet I'm only some cheap doll he got tired of
Two years, two years,
How did I not see him change ?
Maybe I did but denied it
Maybe I knew but only pictured him as the person I loved
Two years & I was the fool
It hurts to finally know the truth after two years

Maybe soon I'll get over it
Maybe I'll be able to remember and not break down
But tonight I'll cry until I can't anymore
Tonight I'll let everything out
Tonight I'll love & miss him
Because after tonight,
I'll be fine, I'll be okay, I'll be free
Tomorrow I'll be taking myself forward
I'll move on tomorrow, I won't forget but I'll accept it
Because it's the end of our story
& I'll create a new beginning for me