2 Windows - Bill Kaulitz

*Chapter 20*

*BILL'S POV*

when yn got asked how her family was for the first time I had to excuse her since she was still like sad about whats happening.i mean I would be to but its sadly happening to her.

"im so sorry for breaking down every time its brought up its just that I will miss here and you and tom and gustav and hana and georg and simone and YOU and.."she said but the rest was muffled for me.

"no no its okay if you want to explain it you can but you obviously dont have to"i said reassuring her.

"no its fine I can tell them I need to get over my over-dramatic self"yn said sighing.

"no yn you aren't over dramatic I promise but c'mon we need to go and when everyone leaves we can lie down if you want"i said smiling.she just nodded a yes and smiled a bit. we walked back to the dining room to see everyone smiling and laughing and my mom looked over to us as we sat down.

"yn you okay?"she asked with her smile dropping a bit.

"yeah im fine"she replied smiling.

"anyways how is your family yn?"rosanna, my cousin asked yn.

"uh"she said stopping and freezing for a second.

"bad to be honest with you, terrible actually"she said starting to tear up.i could tell she wanted to cry but she couldn't let it out in front of everyone.

"oh well im sorry for asking but can we know what happened? we are here for you even though it may seem like super weird but if its one of bill's friends or if its a girlfriend or whatever it is as long as hes close we care for them" Rosanna said looking yn deeply in the eye.

"oh no its completely fine again you can know you guys I will trust"yn said.i purposely dropped my fork to see if yn was okay and ducked down to get it, tapping yn's leg to see if she's okay which she just put a thumb up.that was fine but I saw that her leg was shaking like a lot a lot.when I got the fork I sat up and put my hand on her thigh to calm her down a bit which seemed to work slightly as she put her hand on mine.

"uh so basically my parents started fighting a few months ago and it just progressively got worse and worse throughout the months and I uh...I"she stopped and got a drink of water cooling her off.

"uh and I heard them fighting like 4 almost 5 weeks ago and..and my mom basically said that me, my sister and dad have to be out of her house by January so im trying to spend as much time as I can with bill 'cuz I dont know if I will see him again and..it just feels shit right now for me at home"yn explained drying tears from her eyes.

"especially bill because he is literally the closest person I have closer then hana"yn said smiling, still with her hand on top of mine on her thigh.god I wanted to ask her out now.i cant though.i might tell her how I feel on the day befire she leaves, or before she leaves, or...maybe later.i dont know but oh well.

"I am so sorry but where are you moving to?"my aunt asked.

"Wolfsbur-"yn got cut off.

"oh lord thats over 2 hours away, im so sorry"my aunt said looking sad.i didnt find it sad I found it way way worse.i dont know how im going to live without her.cant think about that now im with her and im happy.

"I'll get used to it"yn sighed picking at her food.the rest of us ate like normal but did have some small talks.i think we all just felt bad for yn but its not her fault.i finished my food and cleaned up my plate and yn was still picking at her food.i tapped her shoulder and she looked up still teary eyed.

"wanna go to my room"i whispered in her ear and she nodded.she stood up and threw what she didnt eat out and cleaned her plate before coming back to me.i took her hand in mine and we rushed up to my room.i shut the door and locked it because like I dont want my cousins to barge in on me and yn like what if we were changing? or sleeping? or even making out?i doubt we would make out but to bad we might.i dont know if she would like it but I want to risk it.i dont care anymore to be honest I honestly love her so much.