Changes - Minsung

Part 36

Jisungs POV

I didn't even notice when I walked home. After I detached myself from minoh and my mind was torn apart by the individual flashbacks, the rest of the time just passed by.

We ran into the others before the school building. They congratulated us and we all made plans to go out tonight. We want to drink and celebrate our final presentation.

Felix had looked at me askance and wanted to know if everything was okay. I just nodded it off and left.

I don't understand what happened. Lost in thoughts I stand under the shower to fresh up for tonight. But can I really go there? How am I supposed to act towards Minoh now?

No wonder how he behaved towards me. But it doesn't really make sense to me either.

I still can't remember anything more. I slide down the shower wall and bury my head under my arms. Let the warm water run over my body.

I know I was mad at Minoh. I was pissed and maybe jealous... Jealous? Really?

Anyway, I went outside with the full bottle so I wouldn't have to see him anymore. I was at the pool, drinking and looking at the stars. I think...

At some point Minoh came looking for me. I fell into the pool and I guess he came after me to help me. Again.
I exhale heavily.
Why do I always put myself in such situations...

But what happened then?

We were both in the water.
I ran my hand through his wet hair. He looked damn good with his hair hanging long and dripping in his face.
I feel myself getting all warm and an exciting tingling feeling spreading through me. I keep thinking about how I slide my fingers along his sharp facial contours and admire his beauty.

I want to know how his lips feel but before my hand reaches them he suddenly holds my wrist tightly.

My heartbeat quickens. If I didn't know any better, I would think that the steam in the shower is caused by my body heat and not by the water.

The thought of it makes me feel excited and tingly. Again, I think back. The way I look at him, just seeing him. He looks so good. I bite my lower lip like I always do when I like the view of someone.

He responds somehow and I'm suddenly even closer to him. I feel his breath on my face. I don't know what he's thinking, but I want to know.
What his lips feel like. How he feels like.

I grab his collar and close the gap between us.
His lips are soft and gentle. He just smells so good.

I open my eyes. Horrified looking down. Notice what wallowing in my newfound memories has done to my body.
Fuck... seriously?

But I'm not into Minoh or... Yeah sure he looks good. But that's it isn't it? It can't be, it must have been the alcohol.
I'm going completely insane.

I get out of the shower and look at my cell phone.

Jeongin: Meeting at the regular store?

Felix: No Innie. We're going to try something new today! Hyunjin Hyung knows a good place.

Seungmin: What are you two actually Lixie?

Jeongin: Yes, really! We need more details...

Felix: I don't know. I don't dare to ask him. But I like him so much.

Seungmin: Then tell him that. Today.

Jeongin: How can he say no to you too? I mean look at you.

Felix: Awww I love you guys! Looking forward to later.

Seungmin: Jisungie? Are we going together?

Oh shit.. I completely lost track of time. I quickly answer Seungmin and move towards the closet. I pick out a wilder outfit and even put on some make up. Can't hurt, I think. As little as I slept last night...

I press a kiss on my mum's cheek and run outside. A corner away I can already see Seungmin waiting.
I take one step in front of the other, getting more and more nervous.

What's going to happen this evening? I really don't want to see Minoh.

After all, I yelled at him drunk and then also harassed him. It is so embarrassing...