Not All Treasure is Silver and Gold

Elizabeth

(10 pm - tropical breeze - pitch black - Jessica's pov)

I will hold onto dis until you can truly utilize it. You wish for your life to end, but you have yet to see what life even is. It is a gift. Hear me now Jessica. Life is but a fleeting moment. We live our lives in moderation and control and fah what? It lasts a short time. You must love until you drown in happiness, laugh until de air you breathe escapes you, cry until ye tears are dry, and live like de next death will take your soul.Dis life is yers to live. Yer mother died protecting you, do not throw dis second chance ehway. Live it ye must, not in fear of what should come next. De next place is waiting fer ye. It waits in hope that ye will come fulfilled, not in longing and regret. Only when ye can appreciate de beauty in what yer heart truly offers ye, will ye feel it beating in yer chest again"

I took in her words so carefully... truly trying to digest what Tia was telling me.. but it unfortunately fell upon deaf ears..

I sighed, looking up at the night sky.
  We had been sitting on her porch that night, drinking whiskey and star gazing. I had been training with her, just to keep myself on my toes with my swordsmanship and hand to hand. She even taught me some herbal remedies if I had ever been in a pinch..

But the year anniversary had come of my mother's death..one I vowed never to speak of again. One I promised myself I'd take to the grave. For the last 6 out of the 8 orphaned years she's stayed alive, she held true to that.

"What is life but fleeting moments of happiness strung together in a web of fate and despair? All love turns into pain. Is pain worth feeling vs nothing at all? How does one ever begin to feel alive again when they have felt dead for the better half of a decade now. The only thing that brings me peace and happiness anymore is when I'm out on the ocean. She is my first and only love. The sea has never betrayed me, the sea has always been here for me...and the sea never left me behind..should I choose to keep living it would be only for the sea"

I eyed Tia with a cold expression, turning back to the ocean view, the moon shining the horizon.

"How sad, a heart that does not know how to love, that does not know what it is to be drunk in love, how can you enjoy the blinding light of the sun, the soft glow of the moon, and the unforgiving sea, if not with the gentle touch of another"

Jessica gritted her teeth in annoyance

"I know how to love! I loved my parents with everything in me! Why do you care so much about me Tia?! This is more than a debt I owe you! This is a game to you and I grow tired of playing! You're projecting your own broken heart onto me but I couldn't care less about the need of another's company! I don't need it! I don't want it! Keep the bloody heart! It's useless to me! I'm just as dead inside as your betrothed"

I spoke bitterly, getting up so aggressively from my chair, it slid a little. Instantly feeling bad, I went to apologize but was met with eyes so dangerous looking, it was almost as if they were glowing gold.

"You stand before me to weak and too afraid to bear your soul to another human. You waste what is given to ye, what was sacrificed FER ye! Ye spit on her legacy and her sacrifice by shutting everyone and every ting out!"

At this point.. I had lost it.. everything went black...

"LOOK AROUND YOU CALYPSO! THERE IS NOBODY LEFT! THEY ALL DIED! MY PARENTS, MY CREW, MY FUCKING DOG, WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT ME?! WHY AM I WRONG TO WISH TO JOIN THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO MADE THAT CURSED THING ACHE FROM THE BEGINNING!"