The Female Sideman Miniminter x Reader x Aitch

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You sat there spiralling in a constant state of depression. The only thing that made the pain go away was to drink. You became reliant on that, every social interaction, every filming and every time you thought of Simon you would drink the feelings away. Picking up this habit had cause you some physical defects. You began to look grey and lifeless the majority of the time. And your mental health was on an all time decline.

Since Talia and Simon went official you feel as though you can't escape them. You have people posting about them on all social media's and then you have them around you in real life. You have been struggling so much lately with the whole Talia and Simon situation and the fact that because of this you have been so hard on yourself you wonder if you should even be here anymore.

You get up and get into your car. You leave your phone and all other belongings behind. You had no need for them anymore. You drive to the nearest supermarket and get some alcohol and get back into your car. You head to the cliff where you used to go with the boys when you guys where younger the place which held so many good memory's for you was the place you wanted to end it all. Once you arrived you sat in the car and began drinking.

ETHANS P.O.V

I am so worried about Y/N. She's drinking herself into an oblivion and it's so hard to watch. I've tried everything to help her and she just won't accept it. I decided to try make her feel better today, Faith and I brought her some flowers and Faith made her a self care package that I was on my way to give her right now.

As I make my way up the stairs I see her bedroom door open a little which is a surprise as she's had it bolted for the past couple weeks.

Ethan: Y/N? you in there?

*no response *

Ethan: Y/N?

*no response*

Ethan: Is anyone home?

JJ: In here

I walk in to the living room where JJ, Vik and Tobi sat.

Ethan: have any of you seen Y/N?

Tobi: Is she not in her room?

Ethan: No I just went up and no one seemed to be there. Somethings not right I have a weird feeling.

*The boys looked between eachother and started looking for you. Tobi rang you and Ethan heard your phone ringing upstairs.*

As I walk in to her room I saw a concerning amount of empty bottles and her phone left on her bed which made me worried instantly because she never goes anywhere without her phone.

Vik: Ethan I just checked and her car is gone. (He says in a panic)

*All the boys join Ethan and Vik in your room and they are all surprised about the bottles in your room. In the middle of the boys searching JJ had rung Simon who made his way over and was now in your room with the boys*

SIMONS P.O.V

I stood there in shock. I didn't realise she was going through such a hard time. I could do nothing but blame myself. Even though we didn't work out I still cared about her. I just couldn't believe I made her feel so much pain that she turned to drink and now god knows where she is.

ETHANS P.O.V

Ethan: She's been drinking, and now she's driving why is she being so stupid. She could end up seriously hurt or dead. (He says panicking which turns into anger) we need to think where would she go.

Simon: The best thing we can do is spilt up and look for her.

Tobi: Right. You (points to JJ) ring up the hospitals and see if she's been took in. You (points to Simon) check the spots you and Y/N went to she might have gone there. Josh and Vik drive round and Ethan and I will drive round.