𝐍𝐨𝐭 𝐀𝐭 𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 || 𝐉𝐉 𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤

The Bath

~Your Pov~

"I don't want to! " John b, Kiara and Jj have been arguing for the past 30 mins

"You have to! " Kiara insists. You don't even know what they've been arguing about

"And who's gonna do it, you?! "

You can't take it anymore, so you go upstairs to check on them

"Hey! " you tilt your head to the side smiling

"Hi " Kiara says wiping away her sweat

"What's up? " you finally ask annoyed

"Jj doesn't want to take a bath! " Kiara answers

"Why? " you turn at him

"Because I can't do it by myself, and there's no way I'm letting these idiots see me naked " he reaches for his crutches, but John b grabs them before Jj can

"Well, if that's the problem.. " John b smirks turning to you, and Kiara immediately understands where he's going with this

"Wha-oh no.. " you realize what he means "No " you turn to walk away but Kiara grabs your wrist and pulls you back

"Why not? You've already.. like.. seen him naked.. " John b argues

"Well, yeah, but- " you get cut off

"So why won't you do it? " Kiara shrugs "It's not that big of a deal! "

"Guys, stop it! " Jj finally speaks "She said she's not okay with this, so let it go! "

"Why, are you okay with this? " you question him

"Yes, he's okay with this! Now go! " John b interrupts and pushes both of you in the bathroom

"What? Wait! " You try to open the door but it's locked

"You will get out when he's clean! " Kiara says and you hear their footsteps as they walk down stairs

"What the hell?! Open the fucking door! " Jj yells but they don't answer

You just lean back on the sink and let your head fall back

~Jj's Pov~

If she was mine, I wouldn't even hesitate. But now it's different. Maybe she feels uncomfortable with all this. I bet she does

"What are we gonna do? " I ask and I see her leaning on the sink, letting her head back. Is this some kind of joke? I feel myself falling for her all over again, the more time we spend together lately. And this definitely does not help

"I don't know.. " she says not moving, but closing her eyes "Can you take off your clothes by yourself? "

"W-What? " I ask and that's exactly how I felt. I swear I blushed a little, but I hate showing weakness in front of her. That's why I hate being shot right now. Because I definitely look weak

"Can you take off your clothes? " she repeats thinking I didn't hear that the first time

"I-I think so.. " I lock eyes with her

"Try to do that while I fill the bath, ok? "

"Ok " why does this feel weird, though? She's seen me naked before. Many times. So why doesn't this feel like then? Maybe because she's not mine this time..

I take off my shirt first. Then, my pants. She fills the water in the bathtub with shampoos and some other stuff that I don't know what they are, but they smell so good.. I take off my underwear, walk near the bathtub and put the crunches aside

She turns to me. Her eyes are staring in mine. They don't go any lower "It's okay " I reassure her

She nods slightly smiling "Sit here " she points at the edge of the tub, and I do so. I put one leg in the water, and she helps me put the injured one, too "On the count of three, okay? " She comes behind me and grabs my waist gently

"Okay " I can't help but smile. Thankfully she's behind me, and she can't see

"One, two, three " She places the rest of my body in the water. Her hands running through my body as she let's go of my waist

"You okay? " she sits outside of the bathtub, but still next to me

"Yeah " I nod not realizing I'm still smiling a bit. I haven't smiled in a while

She puts her hair up in a messy bun, before pouring shampoo in her hands. She runs her hands through my hair, playing with some of it. I don't know how, but now it feels right. It feels like we're together. But that "like" scares me..

Her hands go slowly from my hair, to my torso. Those goddamn butterflies have to take over every time she touches me? I just sit back and stare at her as she does that. She seems so focused. I love it.

She stops right above my "man area" and continues taking care of my leg. It doesn't even hurt when she's washing it

A few minutes later, when she's done, she sits next to my head, still out of the bathtub "You're ready " she says staring in my eyes. Is it possible that she doesn't feel this? Is it possible that I ruined it for us?

"Thank you, y/n " I say and her eyes move from my eyes, to my lips, and then my hair

She runs her fingers through my hair, again, except this time there was no shampoo. I've missed this way too much. I've missed her.

"You ready to get out? " she asks but I shake my head not wanting to leave this moment with her

"No " I say softly

She doesn't ask any questions. She just goes back to playing with my wet hair. At some point, she cups my face with her hands "God, I love you " she sighs. My eyes widen and my cheeks turn red

"Is that bad? " I ask because of the sigh

"I don't know.. " she says and after a while, she smiles

"I love you. Is that bad? " I ask and her face softens

"No " she shakes her head smiling

~~~

~at the beach~

It's been two hours, and I still can't stop thinking about it. She loves me, and I love her. So, why aren't we together? I know I've done something bad, but she's the only one I care about. She's the only one I love. There's no one else. She got nothing to worry about that part

Sometimes I wish I went back in time and never listened to my dad. He ruined my life. He ruined the only thing I had. Sorry, not "thing", person. And the worst part is.. I don't even know if I'll get her back. And to be honest, that scares me. The idea of never getting back together with y/n, terrifies me

"Seems like this is our spot"

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