A life of Sin ( Complete )

Set backs

Bastein's Pov:

Right after Valere left, I regreted what I did. Yes, I found out she likes me. But now, she's scared of me I think. She just left. Didn't even let me take care of her after. This isn't how I planned it.

I was supposed to take care of her. She was supposed to crumble under my initial intaragation in my office. I did not want to do it the hard way and I did not want to hit her. I did not want to hurt her. I just wanted to love her, that's all.

Looking at the clock, I see that it is my lunch break. Valeres shift started three hours ago. She should still be here. I'll check if she is. I need to talk to her anyways. I need to tell her that I'm sorry.

I rise from my chair and make my way down the stairs and to the bar. She should be there. I find the bar tenders and ask,

" Is Valere still here? " in a hushed voice.

" Yes, Master Bastien, she is. She is in the luonge area with Miss Elsie. " Replies Chan while scooping ice into a glass.

" Thank you, Chan. " I respond back to him.

" No promlem. " He then gets back to prepearing drinks.

I look over, inspecting it, searching for Valere. Scanning the lounge, I see Valere and Elsie talking. I wonder what they are talking about. Are they talking about me?

Elsie's Pov:

When Valere returned, I right away knew something was terribly wrong. Just by the look on her face. She looked scared. Did Bastien do something to her?

She sits next to me and scoots closer. Then, she lets out a sob. My heart aches for her. Poor girl. I pull her closer by her waist until our thighs are touching.

To my surpirse, she scoots away and then lays down. She puts her head on my lap. I start strocking her hair and ask,

" What's wrong? " In a soft voice.

" He hurt me. He hit me with a paddle. Not a flogger. A paddle this time. " She speaks between sobs.

I continue to comfort her. I move my hand from her hair to her lower back. I rub small circles. I know that she likes that. She finds it really comferting. That's why I do it.

Soon, her sobs lighten and she raises her head to look at me. Her eyes are red. Her skin is blochy. How could he do that to her?

" We have another problem. " She says, wipping her eyes.

" Bigger than him punishing you for no reason? " I am very protective of her even though I know deep down she has to face this by herself. 

" He knows that I like him. That's a huge problem! " She sits up, correcting her posture.

" Oh shit, he does? " I ask Valere.

She nods and then quites strangly. She is looking at something at something. I fallow her gaze.

Bastiens Pov:

As I aproch them, I see that they've noticed me. As soon as Miss Elsie sees that it is indeed me, she shoots me a dirty look. Her eyes seem to flare and glow red with rage under the colorful club lighting. It takes me aback.

Vaguly, I rethink my desision to talk to them. Don't tell anyone this, but Miss Elsis scares me. The boss. The leader. Scared of another dominate. Pathetic,  right?

Well, I'll have you know that she is not a nice dominate. She is strict and she is firm. She is into heavier play then even I am. She gets satisfation out of others pain. Though it appears Valere is an exception as they are best friends as far as I understand.

But I have to talk to Valere. I have to apolagive. So I go forth. I walk right up to them. Valeres eyes widen when she sees me. Her body tenses. My suspicions are confirmed. I was right when I thought she was scared of me. She is scared of me clearly. 

I show her my hands so she can see that they're empty. That seems to calm her down alittle so I say,

" Valere, I'm sorry for what I did. I should not have took that route. I just needed to know if you liked me back. " I started softly so no one else could hear what I was saying.

" She did like you back until you took it to far. " Elsie says on Valeres behalf.

" But I ruined that, didn't I? " I ask, trying to get Valere to talk for herself becouse she is a strong woman who does not need to be spoken for.

" I don't know. You took advantage of me. All becouse I didn't tell you what you wanted to hear. That's fuck up, right Elsie? " Replied Valere derected to both Elsie and myself.

" I think you two need to talk this out alone. I've done my part. I comforted her, so you can have her now. Just know that I'll be watching your every move, Bastien. " She warns and then stands up, seeing herself out, leaving us to talk without her.

Valeres Pov:

And with that, Elsie left us. Just Bastien and I. He's the last person I want to see or talk to right now. How could she just leave us?

" May I? " Asks Bastein sigliling to the sit beside me.

" Fine. Whatever. I don't care. " I grumble angerly.

He sits next to me. His presance sends shivers down my spine. I can't tell if I am scared of him or flusterd by him. Now that he is close, his colone fills my nostrils once more. I inhale the scent and relax into my seat a bit more, but then I remember that I am supposed to be mad at him and stop myself.

" Valere, I really am sorry. I mean it. I won't do that to you again. Not without your consest, that is. " He starts, keeping his destance from me as not to scare me.

" I remember the coversation we had last month. You were talking about how important consent is. If you know how inportant it is, why didn't you ask? " I avoid eye contact by looking down at my shoes.

" I asked for your safe word and when I told you to bend over the bench, you did as you were told. " He tried to reason with me and explain himself to no avail.

" Yeah, but that's not consent. " I argue validly.

" I took it as consent. " He says with shame riddeled in his voice.

" To be fair, part of me did like it. The problem is that I hate that I liked it. Maybe i'm not scared of you,  but reather of my own feelings for you. Does that make any sense? "  I dig deep within and come to that conclusion.

" Yes. It does make sense. I have idea if your up for it. Do you wanna hear it? " He asks, recomposing himself.

" Sure, what is it? " I reply, now intrigued. 

" Would you like to come over to my place tommorow so we can talk things out? " He asks, which I find kind of cute.

" Do you have my number to contact me? " I ask, kind of hoping that he does.

" Yes I do. It's on your resemee. I keep them in a file in my office. " He explains.

" you know what? Sure, I'll come over. Does Saterday work for you? " I ask Bastein.

" Yeah, that works. I'll message you the adress. " He replies with a satified smile.

" Okay. Well, I gotta get back to work. Bye! " I say relizing I used up my enter luncg break talking to him and Elsie.

" Bye, Valere, see you then!" He says we go our separate ways leaving me to wonder: Whatever have I gotten myself into?