New Kid(Slow Updates)

48:thanks for the trust

⚠️TW: talking about SH⚠️

Y/N's pov:

"Hey, y/n, wanna go up into the hotel, or do you wanna go sightseeing?" Sebastian asked.

"The hotel is fine, I really don't mind at all," I said as I was staring out the window.

I had to tell him sooner or later.
I still had the somewhat scars from the deep ones where lizzie helped me.

"Sebastian," I stated. He looked to the side ,where I was sitting, for a brief moment.

"Yeah? Is something wrong, there are bags in the glove box" He shared.
I let my fingers slide against a scar.

"No no nevermind forget it," I spoke.
"No, you can't pull that trick, now you made me interested. What was it?" He snickered.

"It's nothing, don't worry about it, sebastian." I looked onto the side of the road as I just let my mind wander off.

We got to the hotel, sebastian and I was quick to find our hotel room.
The first thing Sebastian did was flop down on the couch and turn on the TV.

I just walked slowly to my room.
I really wanted to tell him but when I opened my mouth, it just spat out that it didn't matter or it was some bad joke that came out.(I guess Robbie is a good teacher huh?)

I put some headphones in my ears and started my playlist.
I decided to do some school work in the meanwhile, I did not get left out on school work just cause I was working.

"Fucking geometry" I groaned loudly, I closed the computer and put it aside on the little bedside table.

A knock was placed on the hard wooden frame.
"Hey, wanna go to McDonald's?" He asked.

"Alright, but you're paying," I giggled loudly. He rolled his eyes with a smirk.
"Alright, come along." I sprinted and jumped onto his back.

"You're such a child," He joked with a grin. I smiled and put my chin into his shoulder, not too harsh, though.

He purposely made a sharp, extremely sharp turn.
"SEBASTIAN!" I squeled and grabbed tighter onto him.

He carried me to the car.
I jumped down from him and sat down in the passenger seat.

After a minute on the road, I knew I had to tell him or I wouldn't.
"Hey, sebastian, I really, did want to tell you something." He looked at me to tell me that he was paying attention before looking back at the road.

"I saw the post that Quinn had posted, and it just threw me into a bad mindset, and I wanted to." I stopped and looked out the window.

"And I wanted to take a blade and cut, i wanted to self-harm." I wiped the tears that so gracefully ran down my face.

He grabbed the hand i had on my thigh and lightly squeezed it.
He parked at a parking spot at the McDonald's.

"Do you want to talk further about it or just let it lay down?" I looked at him.
"Scarlett asked if I wanted her to tell you it, but I wanted to tell you myself, cause I wanted you to know that I do trust you," I shared and hugged him.

"Thank you, now let's go get nuggets. I'm starving," I giggled, and we quickly stormed out of the car into the McDonald's.

We got to the ordering stand, and sebastian quickly put his order in.
"I would like nuggets, please," I said. He quickly put them on along with a drink for both of us, and then he paid.

We sat down, and the food was quickly brought to us.
"Here's your nuggets," He said and handed me them.
I ate one, and I already felt full.

Sebastian was eating like he hadn't eaten for months.

"Y/n you have to eat a couple more, and I'm sorry but we are not leaving until you have pushed down atleast two more" I understand that he's trying to help me, I get that, and I get that he is a help. But I physically can't eat.
I can't eat a single more nugget.

"I can't,"I addmitted. I wiped the tears that had gracefully sneaked down from my eye.
"I'm sorry, sebastian." I stood up and went to the bathroom.

I sat on the toilet and put my head into my knees.
I started crying, not so people could hear me.

It's just not fair.
Why did I have to develop an eating disorder out of every single person, and then I had to develop anorexia.

I have to disappoint people over and over again.

A knock was placed on the wooden door.
"Hey, y/n, come on, let's go back to the hotel," a voice that was reconiseable from anywhere was heard.

"Please," He whispered, just so you could hear it through the door.
"Just please come out, I want to say something to you." I sighed and wiped my face before walking out to Sebastian.

"I'm proud of you," He said as he hugged me.
"Softie," I mumbled into his shirt.
He laughed and let go.

"Come one, let's get back," He said with a cheeky smile.
When we had closed the doors to the hotel room and turned on the TV in the room, sebastian turned to me.

"Y/n, I am actually proud of you, I really am. Brie texted me that you ate a bag of salted nuts or something like that, and that's so cool. It's a small win, but every win counts. " I smiled a little.
"Plus, you told me something very personal, so thanks for the trust," he finally finished off.

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A/n: damn you're looking snatched today. Really I'm not lying.
I wish I looked like you.

Love ~M~