Forbidden Love

Chapter 8

"What? No I'm not."

"Robyn, I know how your normal voice sounds. You're drunk."

"Whatever." I sighed.What is up with this girl?

"You didn't answer my question."

"You're drunk.....you won't remember all this by morning."

"Trust me I will. Just tell me."

"No you won't. I don't want to say something I really mean right now and you won't even remember when you wake up." I reply.....walking outside. I didn't wanna disturb the others in the dorm, even though some of them weren't asleep....or around.

"I really loved you, you know? More than anyone I've ever met. And then you decide to shut me out.....why? I apologised for hurting you. So why're you treating me like a bad person?"

Well I certainly was starting to feel bad about the whole thing, I didn't like what she was doing to herself, but I also didn't wanna make it so easy for her this time. I wanted her to know and feel what she did to me.

"I'm sorry you feel that way. But I don't want to give in so easily. You really hurt me..and it's not just about shutting me out, it's everything."

I was close to breaking, everytime something happened, I really didn't care about the impact it had on me. I just cared about she being ok,us being ok. I only cared about getting her back. But this time I had to be this hard-core girl that has her walls built and didn't let anyone in and man, was is difficult.

All I wanted to do right now was give in. I didn't like being separated, it hurt.

"Fuck you Zenn," She replied, crying.
"Were your feelings for me even real? Did you really love me or were you just playing with my feelings?"

Sighing, I replied, "I loved you Robyn- Iloveyou -and I never stopped. I don't plan on stopping anytime soon. My feelings for you have always been real, I have always been by your side, despite all you did. Why would you think I was playing with you? Please stop crying. It hurts when you cry."

"So why can't you just forgive me? I said I was sorry."

"Yes I know love. But it's gonna take time."

"I miss you."

"I miss you too babe. But you need to rest, you're drunk and I'm not feeling well."

"No I don't. I want to talk to you."
Sigh.

"You know I've tried to get you off my mind. I even tried to get with a dude to forget you."

She did what?!?

"You did what??!"

"I couldn't. It didn't work."

"But why would you do that? There are other ways. I get that it's painful but I'll never do that to you."

"I didn't know what to do. I'm sorry."

"Don't worry. It's ok." At least she's stopped crying now, but she still sounds sad.

"Robyn I really need to rest, I'm not feeling ok right now. We can talk later ok?"

"No, don't get off the line. I love you. "
Sigh.... she's drunk.

"I love you too. Now go to sleep you need it. Later. "

I hung up. I was walking back to my dorm when my phone started ringing.She's calling back. She needs to rest.And I declined the call. I'm sorry.

I woke up the next day feeling a bit better. Robyn. I wonder if she remembers. I picked my phone to check if I had any notifications. I had messages from WhatsApp and.......Tik tok? It was from Robyn.Why didn't she just text me on WhatsApp?I opened the message.