Forbidden Love

Chapter 7

It was finally Saturday, no preps, I get to sleep and wake up anytime I want. It was around eleven when we woke up - Anna and I. Yes we sleep on the same bed, I don't know how it started but......it continued. The first thing I did was check my phone for any messages, mainly from my girlfriend, who seemed to be quite distant of late and it bothered me. She doesn't do that, even though I sometimes have to force her problems out of her, she doesn't grow distant.

I had a couple of messages from other people but of course her message is what got my attention.

"I think I need space."

Space? Why? She never asks for space. 

"Why? Is something wrong?" I asked.

"Not really, I'm just going through some stuff and I need time"

"What is it? Talk to me."

"It's just some family issues don't worry."

"Since when was it a problem telling me about your issues, especially about that?Alright sure. Just lemme know when it's over. I'm here if you need me."

"Ok sure. Thanks."

Okay just a quick insight.....,I don't know how to give space, like at all. This is the first time she's ever asked for space so in my head giving space is just.... not much contact until she's ready to talk and it basically meant at that point we weren't together. Right? Oh how wrong I was. It kinda bothered me that she didn't wanna talk about it and asked for space instead but I guess things like that happen and there's a first time for everything. 

I understand. This went on for days, weeks even, sure we text in the group she created but it was only to reply to the others' text. We're texting in the group one day and she says she misses me. It came as a surprise, having no contact for so long, at a point it kinda felt like she'd forgotten me. it's crazy I know but I overthink like that.

I reply saying "Oh really?"

About a minute later she dms me, "I just felt like I should let it out."

"I see."

" It's ok you don't have to reply I just wanted you to know."

I was conflicted. I didn't know if I should tell her that I missed her too or not because honestly it hurt. I didn't wanna give in so easily. All that hurt even though I was supposed to be understanding.

"Ok."

She texted me later on that day apologising for what she did and that she didn't really know until one of our friends pointed it out. Understood. Sometimes you don't see what exactly you're doing until you get someone else's opinion. She didn't know I was gonna get hurt and that she didn't wanna lose me as a friend. 

It was a lot for me. We've been through so much and I didn't want to put distance between us, there was already enough as it was. But sometimes shit like that is needed no matter how much it hurts. I was mad and hurt, I'd given her a lot of chances but it looked like I was gonna have to be strong with this one and do what I had to.