Shiny boy.

9.

Dear shiny boy,
                  Hi, been a month you haven't showed up.
This does make me sad but most of all worrying, are you fine?
I do not know how to contact you.
Remember the girl i told you about? Lana
She is a popular person and my friend.
I asked her to search for you.
Turns out there is no one named park jay or lee heeseung or park sunghoon.
Was i really hallicunating it all jay?
Things have gotten worse.
I do not remember how the warmth of hug is like
I do not remember how peaceful life is like
Was i ever a child?
Mom and dad are getting divorced.
Well I was expecting this.
But it somehow hurts that on the divorce date, dad got into an accident.
Lana is out of town, you are nowhere to be found.
I think I am hallicunating things up again.
I.. I don't think I can take this all.
This is painful
Very painful.

But I am hoping to see you again, please?