The Black Petals ( Kinnporsche Fan fiction)

chapter 5

❝ 𝐈𝐟 𝐈 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐞𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬
𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞,
𝐃𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐫𝐮𝐧, 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐡, 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐜𝐫𝐲.
𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞,
𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐢𝐞❞

I woke up to the pungent smell of hospital disinfect, invading my nostrils. The room was silent apart from my heavy breathing and the beep beep sound you often hear in hospitals that indicates you're alive.

I slowly opened my eyes, squinting in attempt to sharpen the blurred images before me. I glanced around and took in the deserted, blue and white colour schemed hospital bedroom.

How long have I been here? I shut my eyes, trying to remember what had exactly happened. Then it all hits me with a bang. The memory of it all starts to occupy my thoughts.

Where's Porsche ? was the first thing which came in my Mind

Does he still think i cheated on him?

Who brought me here? Out of impulse, my hand travels to my face, pressing the throbbing area on my right temple. I felt a scar and flinched at the pain.

How did i end up getting hit on head too?
Wasn't a bullet in chest by his Lover enough?

I tried to get up. Once I stepped on the cold, white tiles, I instantly fell back on to the bed. My body, engulfed in pain as if objecting my decision to stand up. I lay there pathetically, waiting for the pain to wash away.

Staring at the ceiling, illuminated with a white fluorescent light. Perhaps waiting for some help by the hospital staff.

What he didn't expected was a person with familiar face, brown hair and mesmerizing hazel eyes, emerged from the door of my room, with a mobile phone close to his ear

Shit! It's kim", kinn thought panicked

"didn't know floor are more comfy than these beds", kim mocked as he helped me standing back on my weak legs and made me lay on bed again

I was waiting for him to leave but instead he sat on chair to my utter confusion

Author Pov

" done staring at me", kim said as kinn realized he has been staring at his brother for a long time

"i wasn't staring", kinn muttered

After some time of awkward silence, it was kinn who finally spoke

" where's Porsche ",?

Kim gave him a disappointed look

" what",? kinn spat

" stop thinking about him for a while, he was just shocked after everything happened. Chay is with him right now",

Oh, that was the longest sentence kim had ever said to kinn

"hmm",

" Take some rest, I'm coming after some time", kim said before getting up from chair

kinn didn't replied back as he saw kim figure leaving the room

He look beside to find a scissor kept on tray. If a bullet couldn't kill him, will a scissor do? It was a irrational thought

Kinn know he was going to dying anyway. So instead of waiting for his death, can't he just end it now?

But A Ruthless Mafia Like him committing sucide? such a pity

Dad will be disappointed, he thought

"what's the use of even living a life where Porsche thinks i cheated on him, my brothers hate him, Pa thinks Porsche is better heir than me",? kinn asked himself

"I'm trying to let them know what I'm about to do..I'm hoping he can save me, even though I realize they can't",

Kinn Pov

I was sleeping while keeping my eyes open, and soon I started to like it.

I then came to the realization that I didn't want to wake up once again. That's really sad since I was actually sleeping much better because it felt so lovely.

It was essentially a redundant suffering, similar to when you wake up from a nightmare and are ecstatic.

I am constantly torn between turning myself off and shutting everyone else off.

I'm not doing so great at being a useful human, you know? Every day, I lie in bed for at least an hour.

Then, since I'm afraid to offend, I spend time contemplating and remaining silent.

At this Point, i could see my mask cracking. No Longer wanted to pretend

I Saw Kim's gun on table kept beside, slowly sitting on the bed. I tried to reach it with my hands but it was too far

I groan in frustration, Because walking is still a challenge to me. I tried more hard to reach that gun and suddenly the door
opened and i froze

"too eager to kill Yourself, Anakinn",

Can You Guess the Person??